This is a little about me.

[Aburk]

I’m Ashley, 32 years old, suffering from Anxiety and depression, I didn’t really know that I had, until my fiancé ended our 4 year relationship. I have three daughters, with another person who is not in their lives so my fiancé was the only man that they knew as dad. Just here to connect with other people who are going through the same thing as me. Trying to figure things out.

[M_X_D]

If you need to chat I have 2 kiddos of my own, not the same situation, but I have some knowledge of what children need from their parents.

Stay strong, you can get depressed and think no one is happy because of you, but turn to your kids and make a silly face, if their like my kids, they'll starting cracking up, because you make them happy. I've struggled with the "no one would care if I'm gone" thought. But man am I wrong...

You can do this, just keep your head up and provide for the kiddos. Everything else will fall into place.

[Aburk in reply to M_X_D]

Thanks. Yeah they are definitely what keeps me going.

[M_X_D in reply to Aburk]

I actually moved out from my spouse for a week and then admitted myself to a mental clinic to get some help, 2 weeks I was away from my wife and kids...while I was gone my wife told me that my son and daughter wouldn't sleep like they used to. The day I came home and layed down with my son on my chest and my daughter on my arm, they were out in minutes. It shows that even though you might not see it. You're a major part of their lives.

[Aburk]

The reasons behind the break up was my depression. I didn’t know I had it. I was just being my normal self, he couldn’t accept that. And now since reaching out to a therapist and friends I know now that I have been living with depression for a while and didn’t know.

[Aburk]

I haven’t even told him that I was diagnosed with anxiety and depression. I feel like no matter what I say, it will always be my fault and it won’t change anything. I feel he may suffer from depression too, but won’t seek help to find out.

[Dwayneo in reply to Aburk]

Hi Ashley. You can’t change the past, only the future. Are you still on speaking terms with him?