I have major depressive disorder and anxiety/panic attacks. I am on meds. I also had multiple neurosurgeries in recent years. It is so hard to recover from these post surgical effects and to handle depression. Just when I feel as if I am looking up from an episode, I am back in bed because I am in so much pain. This physical pain does not allow me to do much. There comes a moment where I feel as if I’m loosing my mind. I’m also looking for a job and what I can do is so limited. Weekends are the worst. I feel alone. Hours don’t pass. Is there a connection between depression and surgeries? Do they make the challenge of healing even tougher? How to go on with such little hope and all the patience spent? I don’t know anymore.