Panic, anxiety,& depression

[Loki1018]

Good morning so this morning as my alarm went off I called out of work because I called within less than 4 hours it will be an unpaid sick day for me but I don’t care. I didn’t really have a goodnight’s sleep and my body aches all over.

I went back to sleep to then wake up with even more anxiety along with depression but my anxiety overwhelmed my depression that I began to feel nauseous which led me to wrenching and gagging and me running to the bathroom. It’s been a while since I’ve had that physical symptom maybe about a good 2 months or so.

I’m now home and I need to wash clothes and run to the vet to pick up eye drops for my bf’s mother’s dog whom I’m sitting because she has pink eye but I have no motivation to do so I’m currently stuck on my couch more like feeling frozen. I have this panic in my chest and I’m in my safe place which is my mom’s house on the couch but yet can’t get any comfort. I have my xanax to take but if I do take it then I will be put for the count.

[Hidden]

I have no motivation to leave house either. I'm giving myself until 1to get up and dressed.

[Loki1018 in reply to Hidden]

I’m trying to get to the bathroom to draw a bath 🛁 but I’m still in the same spot 😩

[Loki1018]

There more I want to get there and I can’t the more panic is setting in

[Hidden]

I thought of getting in shower. But I'm gonna nap until 12:30.

[Kat63]

Maybe you could do just one little thing. When I do that - force myself to take that first step - I sometimes find that that helps me to go ahead and do the rest of the things I need to do.

[Loki1018]

I made it to the shower, I washed the dishes as well there is something about water that relaxes me but Jesus it took everything out of me. I feel as though I ran 2 marathons and I some how made it to the basement to put a load in but I over exerted myself.