Needing my faith in life back

Hi guys I'm new here! I suffer from bipolar, disorder, anxiety, depression, moods wings to say the least and ptsd. My life has traumatized me I'm finding it harder everyday to feel human. I always feel alone and just need to find a new way to cope with my life. I'm barely making it through. I'm only 25 years old and I'm too young to be suffering this much honestly. The things that have cause my mental illnesses play in my head over and over like a movie you just can't shut off. Thank for any help guys. I appreciate that you took the time to read because I'm losing faith.

[jkl5500]

Are you receiving treatment for your condition?

[Hidden in reply to jkl5500]

No I am not because I can't afford the Healthcare nor can I afford my medication or the services out of pocket. That's why I'm here hoping I can find the therapy I need through people that I can relate to I feel like a freaking train wreck like a psycho dog with rabies who needs to be put down. I'm out of control but I don't know how to control it anymore.

[jkl5500 in reply to Hidden]

You're welcome to talk to us all you want, but it's clear that you need medical treatment, too. Try a websearch for low cost mental health clinics in your area.

[Hidden in reply to jkl5500]

Thank you, I realize I do need help believe me I want help and if I could get it I certainly greedily would take all the help I could get. It's hard to carry a job to even become financially stable though.

[jkl5500 in reply to Hidden]

All I can say is please look for something in your area. If you think you might harm yourself, go to an ER immediately.

[Hidden]

I've been without my medication since July of last year, I'm staying with a family friend and my husband barely scraping change to eat after the bills are paid. I've even thought about just commi to ng myself for a timely rehab to get help but I'm afraid Im to scared to be without my husband because of my separation anxiety from him.

[jkl5500]

I don't want to tell you what to do, because that's not my business. But if you want my opinion, you've got to start somewhere. You are really hurting badly, and you have to get treatment in order to start getting better. I hope you can do it very soon.

[lovedogs51511]

Hiya breezy!!! I'm glad I met you cause I feel exactly like you. Oh and welcome to the site!!! I'm 45 and I'm only feeling better lately due to moving to the desert 5 years ago and with my meds I've felt ok. I'm on Lamictal and Geodon for the bipolar 2. Pristiq for depression. I also suffered from alcoholism and drug addiction for 25 years. I'm just going to say drugs and alcohol never helped one bit. I'm 7 years clean now and feel much better. The beautiful bright sun turned my misery into happiness. Where do you live? I grew up in WA state for 40 years and that nasty weather everyday kept me suicidal everyday of that 40 years!! I know all to well about the racing thoughts and misery that these disorders cause. I'm an open book. Ask me anything you need too. Message me anytime cause I'm unemployed right now ok. Ill be here for you anyway I can😀😀

[Hidden]

Thank you I understand where your coming from. I do want help for sure and I'm not running away from getting help because I do desperately need it. Suicidal tendencies are always my latest go to.