Losing faith in people

I tend to write a lot. It's easier for me to write than to talk to people. I don't have a good connection with my parents. I wish I did. They aren't going to change and I'm not going to change myself for them. I'm losing faith in humanity in general. I want to work. I don't like how a lot of people will look down on me because I'm on disability. And food assistance. You whip that EBT card out, some people look at you like they want to spit on you. Too many guys out there just use women, I'm just tired of just surviving. I know I have to help myself, I feel so stuck in my situation. Thanks for listening, I'm going to try to get some sleep.

[hurtingheart1]

Just came across your post - sorry you’re struggling with these painful feelings and thoughts💞💞💞😣I think similar things sometimes how people can be soo cold heartless it’s soo hard to relate to them& the ways they think!! There is a lot of selfishness and lack of love overall!! But I pray and hope to see the good shine through somehow though & always searching out the gems out there -I know they are there!! Some have been on here & are on here!!! You’re not alone - keep always shining your light being best person you can be!! Who knows you may inspire someone or be of help to them as well??🌻❤️❣️I hope you feel better& get some rest! I’m not on here a ton but I try to check in as much as I can but feel free to msg me I’ll get back to you if not right away soon as I’m able!!☺️

[Hidden in reply to hurtingheart1]

Thank you for your kindness.

[Dreamer27]

Hey, I can connect on you with the writing. I process things slower sometimes, especially personal thoughts. I have to write things to even understand what I'm thinking sometimes. Sorry to hear about your troubles but don't loose your faith in humanity. And you're not alone in your thoughts, in your feels, and your hopes. Take a breath and screw the people who have the privilege of not having to be dependent on the government for help. Screw the people who are lucky not to have to understand what it's like to have to rely on necessary items like food and clothing for survival.

Don't let the world and your experiences make you hate. Be different and take pride, even if the rest of world may disagree, that you still believe it to be a beautiful place. Message me as well anytime.

[Hidden in reply to Dreamer27]

Thank you so much.

[Hidden]

Please keep going.

Please keep trying.

You asked how I was feeling yesterday and it made me feel really good things for a moment.

I have a good job with a good wife and a wonderful home and two healthy boys with straight A’s and 4 rescued pit bulls and you know what?

I’m tired of surviving too.

Job or social status does not dictate depression’s grip

It’s the illness.

I just want you to know you made me feel worth something yesterday....

And now I feel worth something again trying to return the favor.

Thank you for helping me 🙏

[Princemalik]

I am going through same thing, I feel like my friends are using me and it makes me look stupid. I don't mingle with people but when someone new comes close it trigger my paranoia and I get angry.. That's having trust issues.

I wish I will wake up and it will all go away..

[hurtingheart1 in reply to Princemalik]

Sorry you go through that!! It is tough dealing with the stress & anxiety and not trusting others!! I pray for You& ones like us to have more peace & hope for better days!!💞🌻🌻🌻🙏🏼🙏🏼Take care&Keep posting !!

[Ladybug9]

I'm exactly like you. I am so much better with pen and paper than speaking. I've been told by numerous people how well I write and that I should write a book. Amazing what others see in us that we don't seem to see in ourselves. No, your parents most likely won't change and I'm very happy to hear that you are choosing NOT to change for anyone. And why should you? Just keep being who you are. No one should be looking down on you for ANY reason! I too use the EBT card and I've never been looked down on. And if they know what is good for them, they need to keep their thoughts to themselves. When I was really young and raising two boys, they had paper EBT that looked like money but of course, wasn't. Talk about being looked down on! OMG, I thought I had just killed someone!

As for losing faith in humanity? There are going to be wonderful people AND very horrible people in this world. That will never change. Just be a good person, be kind to others, and one of my very favorite quotes is this one: "Just love everyone. I'll sort em out later--God...

As for men? Putting all men into one category is as unfair as all women being put into one category. There are both great and evil. Good and evil will always exist. Just keep your radar up and use your gut. If something doesn't feel right, it most likely isn't... Listen carefully to their words, if they trip up or choose not to share or answer your questions... Red Flag! I could share so much but I"ll let you get some sleep. I'm here if you ever want to talk!! I know EXACTLY how you are feeling right now. Hugs.

[Hidden in reply to Ladybug9]

What you wrote to me was so nice, thank you so much. I'd like to look you up in the private chat if you don't mind. I will send you a message soon. Thanks again.

[Ladybug9 in reply to Hidden]

Absolutely!