Anxiety and depression

[Arys]

Fews years ago I was a young adult excited to start a new life in Europe where I was going to pursue my studies.All that I remember was happy years full of amazing people and success at school.I was in love and have been in relationship with a very nice person for 7 years when suddenly the immigration laws changed and I had not no choice than leaving that continent that I loved so much.I returned in my native country and a civil war started so again I left and came in US to seek for asylum.

It took me 3 years to get the right to live here .3 dark years .I feel like my depression started at that period since then.I have tried to get a decent job in my field of study but I would not find anything...perhaps my foreign degrees where not helping.I got a surviving job but it is not clearly what I want to do for good.Fear, anxiety life emptiness....i live with those feelings everyday.In 5 years that I have been here, I have no friends ...I feel ashamed of myself to have passed from a successful person to a failing one.So I stay away from people so I wont have to explain what happened to me.

I miss the happy person full of life that I used to be.The person who was not afraid to make plans and projects, who had full of friends around.

Its the first time that I talk about me and I feel like here I will find the support that i need to get better.Thanks to everyone who will take time to answer me.

[Mgbg]

I’m so sorry to hear all that you have been through! You sound so strong and things can only get better from here! I’d gladly talk to you anytime.

[jkl5500]

The things that happened to you were completely beyond your control. I don't blame you a bit for feeling terrible about how everything turned out, but there is no reason for shame. You didn't do anything wrong. You were just caught up in events where you were powerless to stop them.

Two good places to meet people are your local church and volunteer work. Try volunteermatch.com and find something that you like nearby. You'll meet nice people in these places.

I'll keep you in my prayers, and I wish you the best. You're welcome to post here anytime.