Alone....

[Madison35]

I am so tired of feeling alone. All the time, I try to mask it and have gotten pretty good at it but it’s getting harder to hide. Nothing I do makes it better. I have nobody to talk to about it and I don’t know what to do. I have these visions sometimes on things I want to do, or how I want my life to be and it makes me feel good. I have no motivation anymore. I’m lost..

[jkl5500]

I know from experience that you're suffering from standard symptoms of depression, and the only solution is medical treatment. Trying to "keep it together" isn't working, right? It's just getting harder and harder to do. Please don't try to handle this all by yourself - it's way too big. Let others help you.

Yes, that means medication. And you have to be patient to give the med a chance to work. I know that's very hard, because you have very little patience when you're depressed. But you've got to do it. Please see your doctor ASAP and get started.

[Madison35 in reply to jkl5500]

Thanks but I’ve went to two different doctors and they just seem to think nothing is wrong and just ignored what I have said even though I’ve mentioned being on Xanax in the past. So I don’t know what else to do. I’ve been dealing with this for at least 6 years or more, I was on meds once and my dr retired, it seems like drs now just want money and keep making me come back for follow ups just to tell me I’m fine

[jkl5500 in reply to Madison35]

If you told your doc those symptoms and he said you're fine, you need another doctor.

I don't know what they were thinking of. Were they GP's, or psychiatrists? GP's aren't all that knowledgeable about mental health, in my opinion. You are really hurting. Give another psychiatrist a try.

[Madison35 in reply to jkl5500]

I’ve thought about it but I can’t afford it. I know it just sounds like an excuse but it’s the truth. Everything is about money, nobody wants to help anybody unless it involves money

[jkl5500 in reply to Madison35]

There must be clinics in your area that accommodate people with lower incomes. Do a little searching online. There have to be some resources for people in your situation, because a lot of people ARE in your situation.

[Vioie]

To each his own. My niece tried to see a psychologist it didn't help her that much. She said she reinfocing her childhood experienced.shes under meds right now Prozac 0.25 2 times daily .it somewhat stabilize her mood.