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[WCCAN]

I feel so alone at times its hard to breathe. I have Asperger's Syndrome so its hard for me to relate or have relationships with people, because of this its like a package deal: depression and anxiety included. All I want to do is just sleep, my college work is falling behind and I know what I need to do to stop it but I just can't bring myself to do it. And to top it all off I'm bi with an extremely homophobic dad, the stress from it all is getting to much. I can't cope with it anymore. Please help me.

[pgseth]

When I was dealing with my anxiety ptsd depression and insomnia (insomnia only before exams) in college I found myself in a similar situation of always sleeping and worrying about my parents thoughts. I started getting a study room at the library and it helped. Not just school. It helped me socialize with others. I made a lot of friends always having a study room, I would joke that I lived at the library before exams with other students and invite them to study with me. Is there on campus counseling? That was very helpful to me as well.

[WCCAN in reply to pgseth]

The study room sounds interesting, I've seen the councilor at my college but I find it really hard to talk to them. At high school I had a councilor I liked and could talk to but the one at college just isn't the same. I've tried and I've asked to see if there's any others I could be referred to but they haven't got back to me. I'll ask the college again, thanks for the advice!

[pgseth in reply to WCCAN]

That's sad about the counseling my first one was good but once they left it was hard to replace them. Do you live on or close to campus? If you don't mind me asking.

[Hope4me2018]

Hi, I’m new to the site. I also have very bad depression and anxiety. It’s causing me to miss out on a lot of good things in life. I’m taking online classes and I haven’t open a book in over a week and a half and took a a week off last week just to try to get myself together. I have work tomorrow and I’m dreading it. It’s affecting my relationships and I’m neglecting a lot of my responsibilities cause I can bare to get out the bed sometimes. I’m scared I’m going to lose everything behind this, medications don’t work, they make me feel zombie like and shaky. I decided today after crying all morning to get up and go to the store. Step by step I’ll beat this and you will to. If you are a believer pray for help and direction and post notes on your mirror and fridge with inspiration quotes. We’re stronger than we think. I also started a daily video journal that I keep in a locked app on my phone and I try to video tape the days I’m really depressed and also my good days. It helps me to go back and reflect on what’s triggering my bad days. I’m also giving up drinking as of today. It makes my depression so much worse. I’m also thinking I have bipolar issues along with the anxiety. I hope you knowing your not along helps some and try to stay positive

[WCCAN]

Thank you, that really helps. I'll give it a go, I use to log my good and bad days but studying took over, now there's less exams I'll start again. Good luck with everything!