Challange day.

[MandyBueno]

Good morning everyone! I'm still taking my pills and yesterday i had a breakdown and i'm not ashamed to say this, i have been completely acceptable and pacient with my emotions. But i do feel comfortable to share with you guys my personal experiences. 30 days ago i've lost my grandpa, he was amazing and he totally inspired me to be the best version of myself, and next month will be 1 one year without my auntie, so lovely and pure she left us without warning. Yesteday i arrived home and realised my sister was not there, she left for college and that empty room, silence felt like screaming and since i was all by myself i was totally expecting that breakdown. Today i will be trying a new thing at college, there' s someone there that totally played with my emotions, he's taken me for granted for almost a year, since then my self-steem was never the same, i couldn't recognize myself, i felt like losing my identity, but although i knew that that person is extremally toxic leaving the scenario and cutting this person out of my life was quite an impossible task for me to do, we take the bus together, we have classes together and keeping my distance was so hard to do. Well, i totally trust in you guys, i feel Lucky i found a support group, these two days talking and sharing experiences Just made me realise i can talk about anything that bothers me. It's been months i have been promising to myself i would walk away, but i never kept those promises, but today i'm willing to step out of the comfort zone, and walk way without looking back and i have just decided i won't let my anxiety get in the way, for now, everything seems easy, but the hours will approach and i will have to face that toxic person again and i'm scared, i want to be strong and control my emotions, cause they always seems to control me instead.What do you guys suggest me?

[Dubba61]

Hi Mandy, that must be hard to do. But, they say happiness is the best revenge. So put on your best Smile talk happily to others on your Bus. Basically just Fake it. Deep Breathing, too. It helps. As you say this Person is Toxic and so you know your well rid. Next time you will recognise a "toxic" person and stay well clear. Focusing instead on someone who doesn't, sap your energy's. And who will make you feel good about yourself. Loosing your Aunt and Grandpa is not easy. You will perhaps always feel the loss. I,m coping with the loss of my Mum at the moment and even though I'm many years older than you, and have lost a lot of people from my life. It's still not easy. I'm trying to focus on all my 'good' memories and happy times. Which I think is all you can do. Thinking of you and wishing you well today. 😊 Dee

[MandyBueno in reply to Dubba61]

Thank you so much for your wise words, losing someone we love is not easy, but i know is part of Life and i have to move on. Once again, thank you 😘😘😘😘

[newhope in reply to MandyBueno]

Yesss. Happiness IS the best revenge. Show him that you are BETTER OFF without him!! ❤️❤️ Boy, I bet you he will be jealous and try to snake his way into your life but then that would be your chance to stand up and say “hell no. I don’t need you.” Make him feel what he lost and enjoy that because it will remind you of how much you are WORTH. You are worth more than anything in this world. Shine in that and you will be okay. 🌟🌟🌟 Will be thinking of you tomorrow! If you feel yourself slipping back, please post or even message me and we will remind you of your worth. You can do it! 🙏🏻❤️

[fauxartist]

I commend your spirit and your courage to move forward with your life. Yes, you are strong and you have now shown yourself you can do what it takes. Now...remember....this person really.....just think about it for a minute....they really have NO power over you unless you give it to them. Yes...I can relate...if I had to sit in the same room with my ex-, I would feel un-comfortable until my survival mode kicked in....they are an ex- for good reason. Now I'll tell you this not to hurt your feelings, it's just the way people are. He probably doesn't care about anyone really, only himself. Yeah, people are usually too wrapped up in their own stuff that they don't care about anyone else's stuff really. So remind yourself...why am I giving this guy my power at all...what a waist of energy. Also see if you can sit out of site from them while in class...don't lower your head to avoid them...make them invisible..look through them as if they were not even there..you no longer see them, cause you don't need to care about them. Take care of your heart, you have school to get through, which is far more important than this person who is just not the right fit for you...they are toxic as you said.

[Hidden]

Woman Power all the way! Stand strong , hold your head up & think of something happy. I sure do hope I'm of some help. You aren't the one who was in the wrong!!! Be like The Little Engine That Could!! I wish you all the best!!

Peace & joy!!! XXX

[MandyBueno in reply to Hidden]

Woman Power Always!! !!! 😘😘😘😘

[newhope]

If you feel like you are about to go back - let us know and we will remind you of why you are walking away. You can do it. You are strong!! Cut that negativity out of your life and never look back - you will love yourself for it. ❤️

[MandyBueno in reply to newhope]

I Will turn to you guys whenever i feel like looking behind. I know that's not the place i belong. Your support means a lot to me😘😘😘