Thought of suicide came through my mind?

[mz_rachel]

So I was looking at an old picture and it was me and my dogs at the beach. I was staring at the water and had a quick thought of suicide. It’s started to freak me out so I thought I’d go on here. Anyone ever get a sudden thought? I have no plans trust me but I did question it to myself..

[Vonnah]

Yes this has happened to me plenty of times. Just don't focus on those terrible negative thoughts. Ask for help from a hotline if you do continue to feel this way. It's strange. Sometimes i will wish i never existed, etc but just ignore it don't act on it!

[mz_rachel in reply to Vonnah]

Thank you so much. Yeah I’ve been depressed before and I guess I’m in the same boat again but I guess I’m just stressed about money and holding down a job bc of my GAD.

[Vonnah in reply to mz_rachel]

Your welcome. I'm glad i could help. I understand how you feel about that. Thankfully, i just got hired to a job yesterday after my second interview. So far i'm excited but I'm looking forward to just taking one day at a time as i start my mental health recovery. At my first old i started to worry about my absences completely due to my depression and anxiety. Eventually i got let go and was extremely depressed and my anxiety was so bad i didn't leave the house in 3 weeks straight. Now I'm taking my next step forward to get back on my feet. I hope you and me can both find our balance and peace with this😘💜

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[Stilltrying_]

Yes I think this can happen to people.

As you say you don't intend to act on it. Sometimes when the mind is stressed up it's looking for ways out and comes up with that thought; though of course it isn't a viable way out of anything in reality.

Just let your thoughts come and go as they do and you don't need to act on it; infact please don't act on it of course.

You'd only need to do something more (like seek doctors help or psychological support) if you felt like this most of the time and were considering acting on it for sure. Then you may need some extra help in changing your mindset. X

[mz_rachel in reply to Stilltrying_]

Thank you for messaging me. I’m just stressed that I have nothing else better to do with my thoughts lol but the thought of it scared me. And it ain’t a game, this subject is way too sensitive.

[Stilltrying_]

Yes, I know; which is why I say if it becomes persistent and entrenched then you may need medical intervention such as anti-depressants or a course of counselling. If you do have access to any free counselling at the moment (such as through a college or a work place) I would maybe pay that person a visit and just tell them the thoughts you've been having. Talking about something can help it from becoming more serious a problem and promote healing. XXXX

[mz_rachel in reply to Stilltrying_]

Thank you, yeah I’ll probably search what’s around. I’m actually on meds already, but currently not working. I just do pt from home by working with dogs bc they make me happy.

[Stilltrying_]

That's great ! It's always best to do the things that make you happy X

[fauxartist]

yes, I have. But I know it's my depression. I know that there doesn't have to be any particular reason why, it's just the disease. So I just have to work through it. It will pass, I know it. Also...I really do have a pretty good life now, I think I would miss it.