This is something that I randomly came up with today (by randomly I mean that the lines just popped into my head when I was doing school so it was a bit random)I added parts as they popped into my head throughout the day and I took time to edit it before I posted it so it sounded how I thought it and made sense. At first, I thought I might be able to turn it into a song (no I have not written a song before but I have thought about it) but Now I do not know if I can I am still gonna think about it though. if y'all have ideas I will consider them and we can collab to make it something very cool to help others understand this idea a bit more.
Moments from the past swirling round my head and even though I am over them I can’t seem to get over them I wanna live in the moment but my head keeps filling my now with memories from the past bringing me back to those moments that I say I’m over but I am obviously not, will I ever be over the moments? Thoughts running around my head filling it with thoughts more often than not make me sad inside yet I forget to cry. Who am I to cry when everyone around me is happy cause of me? Life is not my mystery yet it is not easy for me. Who am I to say who I wanna be when everyone needs me? Everyone relies on me so there seems to be someone I should be. my wants and my need are lining up my life seems fine cause it is. it’s me who's not. I do not know why in a perfect life my mind can be so broken and my soul destroyed. I know I am not alone but alone I am in how it happened because no one is fully just like me. the moments that destroyed my soul were made by people; did they know? I never can let no one in but sometimes they still get in and they never stay and when they leave they leave me broken at their feet. they walk away like I should be fine because I know how it all should work the lessons are all engraved in my mind but that does not mean that they can always be followed easily. now I am back at the beginning once more and I do not know what to do. They are just memories I can forget them and move on but the lesson is always there taking me back to the beginning leaving me confused and finding me broken
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This is super interesting. I was Really struck by the part where you expressed that you don’t feel like you have the right to cry because you have a good life. That made me very sad when I read it because everybody has the right to their emotions and to their tears. Having a nice life doesn’t mean you don’t get to have a emotions or strong feelings or ever be sad. I think, the thing about life is that no matter your position, it is very complex and confusing, and it takes a really long time to navigate how to deal with things. So if life itself is complex and confusing then it’s only inevitable that you deserve to validate your feelings❤️❤️❤️
That is a real good idea for a song and you should I'll give you these lyrics for a starter. (I am a musician and lyricist and feel free to critique) (It's more of a rap in the 90-110 BPM range)
this is a good song but I think you should write it it's your work of art and only you can truly convey the mention you were feeling and the story you are trying to tell best. plus my post is what I would make into a song I am just not sure how to do that in a way that sounds good and still sounds like how I felt it when I was writing it.
Yeah I have been writing songs since I was 6 it's one of my passions. I have recorded professionally. Some books I recommend are "Writing better lyrics" by pat patterson. HUNDREDS of writing exercises and if you stick to that for a year I can almost guarantee you will be 100x better. There are hundreds of ways to write but one thing I do is write backwards and what I mean by that is I try to find what is the last line I want to say, in this case "Why does this always hurt?" so then I find similes to "Destroy" (keep a thesaurus handy) try to fit it in the lyrics and watch your syllables. You use the syllables of all your words to try and keep in with the timing. And also if you have a line in your head repeating over and over and you are indecisive whether or not you should say it, use it. Eventually you will have a whole verse and then a chorus and then a song lol Practice makes perfect.
A warm up you can find in the book is an exercise where you write one word each time it would be a random thing ex: Ashes
and then you have to try and write a story or memory, the first thing that comes to your head and try to use all your senses. How would ashes sound? How does it feel to touch? Smell? Taste?
And just write as much as you can and do not dwell. You would time yourself for 5 min and once the timer hits if you feel like you were not done, that means the exercise worked! Use that to warm up and you will have songs in no time!
my post is what I would make into a song I am just not sure how to do that in a way that sounds good and still sounds like how I felt it when I was writing it.
I saw replies about the idea of making a song, but it looks like there’s more than that going on in this post, so I thought I’d share my thoughts.
You are entitled to your own emotions, which are independent of your circumstances. You could have the best circumstances and be the most miserable person, but you can also have the worst of circumstances, and be the happiest person on the planet. However, you can also have amazing circumstances and be a happy person, or have terrible circumstances and still be miserable. The point is that no matter what you have going for you in life, there is a whole spectrum of emotions available to you, just like it is for everyone else.
You can be who you want to be and still help people who need you. There’s only one of you, so don’t be afraid to be yourself. That might just be the one thing people need. You.
It looks to me that part of what you’re feeling from these memories is the result of friends abandoning you in the past. I have lots of experience with losing friends... I’m not going to say I know how you feel, because I am not you. However, I will say that I’ve experienced a great deal of pain from my own losses, so I can empathize from my own personal experiences.
Loss leaves a hole, one that most things fail to fill. In times of sadness, it’s perfectly normal to search your memories for things that have made you happy in the past (whether it’s deliberate or subconscious). The mind has a greater tendency to search for memories from categories that are generally associated with happiness. Friends are a great example. However, those same memories that were pleasant in your past, are evaluated from a current, post-loss perspective. Those old memories are then tied to the loss and act as a reminder of the pain, rather than being a happy thought to remedy the wound.
The point of this is that it’s normal. Try to make a space in your mind for those normal things. When you’re hungry, you don’t just tell yourself that it’s wrong and expect it to leave. If you try to immediately eradicate a perfectly normal bodily function, it’s not gonna work. It will keep bothering you until you do something about it. So for those memories, your brain is simply searching for something to cheer you up, but it’s looking somewhere that was once reliable, but is no longer relevant. Recognize that it is normal, open up to it. Then, act on what you believe. Take your normal response, and redirect that energy into something else.
Here’s an example of a thought process you could try: “Yes, I understand that this is a normal thing, and I accept that. But right now there is a wound in need of healing, and I need to 1. input something else into this normal function to produce a different result, or 2. Try utilizing a different normal function.”
There are lots of examples of where that thought process can go. When memories of old friends don’t work (whether those memories came by choice or not), you can transition to thoughts of something you’re passionate about (or something else that makes you happy). When you’re stressed, you can use a normal function (like exercising) to deal with that stress in a healthy way. The applications of this are plentiful.
Life is hard. We were made to overcome, but we can’t do that if there aren’t any challenges. Growth requires effort, and effort comes from a need to do something, and the following action necessary to do so. Oftentimes a need comes in the form of discomfort (when you’re hungry, you put in effort to eat). Our reaction and the focus of our efforts are what determine the outcome of that discomfort. Any effort that is directed to helping you move forward in a healthy way, that is how you grow.
I hope you feel better soon know that broken isn’t permanent. Things do get better
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