Never told anyone...how bad my anxiety or depression is.

I have tried to struggle alone for so many years. I am unable to cope day to day anymore. I'm lost..I'm sad. I'm overwhelmed now. I'm lost...that's how I feel. I can't bring myself to tell anyone. It's so hard..but I am not sleeping now...I am nit eating properly and I am in the process of moving to a whole different state...hoping I can change my sadness. It's so hard having a mental disease...people think you can just switch it off. I'm

lost man.

[Forestina]

I am not surprised you feel lost. Moving to a different state is a big thing which would unsettle anyone, so please don't beat yourself up over it all.

All this is a great burden for you to carry and you have made a brave first step in acknowledging it all.

There are always people here on this site willing to chat. Please keep reaching out to them.

🍀. Good luck with your new life.

[Scott1951]

I am sorry things are so tough today. Its terrible not being able to sleep. And you have to eat to keep your strength up. All this doesn't mean, necessarily, that you are moving to a deeper state of depression and anxiety. Its very difficult to deal with mental illness on your own so it is good that you have posted here. Have you also talked to a doctor about what you are experiencing? This is an opportunity for you to become more engaged and intentional in addressing your depression and anxiety. People here can help. Wish you the best.

[Radel]

That sounds difficult, and yeah when you don’t tell anyone about how you’re feeling it gets worse. I didn’t tell anyone that I had depression until about a year ago. It got to the point where I couldn’t even function anymore, I could not leave my room. So, if you have someone around you that you can trust you should tell them, don’t spill your life story to them you could just say something like “I feel lost” or “I feel helpless” you don’t have to spell out the details. If not, then I suggest you seek a therapist because that’s one person who you could tell anything to and your relationship would remain one of pure business (if you’re uncomfortable of sharing your struggles with a close friend) or it can be a friendly one, you’re the one in control of the situation then. Worst case scenario and you can’t do any of these, then try talking to yourself. I’m not talking about the silent mumbling or internal thought process but rather have a Shakespearean monologue with yourself. Enunciate your current problem and try to figure yourself out. A big part of us feeling lost is that most of the time we don’t know the reason why we feel this way, why we feel sad, angry or emotional. So if you could give yourself some time to just slowly peel off the layers and try to verbalize the problem, to understand anything about it. It helps. That’s what I did at the beginning, and even though I can’t tell you that it made me feel 100%, it did help me in the short run, and when it got really bad, and I gained just enough courage to tell my mom about it, I could tell her the problem in detail. So even if she didn’t go through it, or she doesn’t understand, how I explained it, the details, the reasons, the problems became more understandable. So, I mean this is a completely unprofessional opinion, but give yourself sometime to figure yourself out, make self awareness priority 1 and make the focus that you give to your immediate surroundings number 2 on your list. I hope this helps ❤️

[Hidden]

Thank you so very much for those words.

[Hidden]

I am trying to adjust to all of the emotions at once which is overwhelming. Maybe a layer at a time will work. I suppose it cannot make it any worse.