Why me?

[dixont04]

Hi, I am currently battling depression and suicidal thoughts. I wanted to talk to people that know exactly how I feel. I need to know how can I overcome what I am feeling?

[hypercat54]

Hi nice to meet you. Well the obvious answer to your question is to seek medical help. Are you currently doing this. You can also ring one of the emergency helplines so have a look in the pinned post for the numbers.

Meantime stay with us as most of us know what you are going through and you are not alone. Can you give us any more information about yourself please? x

[Dubba61]

Hi i am sorry to hear that. I won't lie, it takes long time to get over these things. Lots of little things add up like finding something you like to do. For me it's Reading, walking,Crafting. Anything that takes my mind away from my worries first while. And just trying to enjoy the small things, something nice for Dinner, a Sunny day, a phone call from a friend.ive been where you are and i,m proof that this has change. Stay well.Take care of yourself.

[Sprinkle1]

You have my empathy, been in your shoes more times thank I care to remember. I have found out now I am older first thing: Go for Help NOW. call your suicide hot line, they are all over the US. Go to the Emergency Room, (if you can drive) or have an understanding friend to take you. Overcoming the thoughts are hard to do by ones self. Our brain is out of balance, it generally takes med's to re-balance them. A good therapist may be of help, but then for me a psychiatrist who helps people with our problem is the first line of defense. I do not trust the medical system for the most part, as I think too many of them are playing god and are inexperienced. It just happened to me again this month, wrong med. wrong dose and now I am suffering. Know you are not alone, too many of us (millions) are suffering, but mental health is slowly improving. Get help but take care to screen the helper (s). Do anything that pleases you and keeps your mind off the negative. if you have a friend to sit with you, try to keep from being alone. I watch funny films, read funny articles, do my coloring books, I would walk but my energy level is low and I am afraid of falling (I am 75). Stay on line with us here, people will share with you and try to be of help. Do your best for You, love you, do not feel guilty about anything, seek only the sunshine. Sending Love & Hugs. Sprinkle 1 w/peaace

[dixont04 in reply to Sprinkle1]

thank you so much. I sometimes hate my life but I'm trying so hard to stay positive.

[Vonnah in reply to dixont04]

Don't give up, we are all here for you and we support. I support you i feel suicidal too sometimes.

[Cat2]

Can you find someone to give you a hug, go for a walk with you, have a cup of tea/ice cream, etc? Sometimes just a break for a few minutes can ease the burden of what you are feeling for awhile.

[dixont04 in reply to Cat2]

I think your right. I'm thinking about going to the movies alone. Maybe that'll help?

[Cat2]

Anything to get your thoughts out of your head right now. Also, what about that a donut or treat for yourself after the movie? A reward? Lol, I feel like I'm pushing dessert on you! Don't mean to, but sometimes you need some kind of treat for doing something difficult.

[Hidden]

Have you thought about the spiritual aspects of your suffering situation. God is the sure and certain answer and will come alongside and sustain you in this suffering, as he has already been doing. This is a golden chance for you to have a relationship with him

[amymvb]

Hi Dixont04,

I’m glad you are here and willing to share your struggle. I have been in the same spot with depression, suicidal thoughts, and anxiety. I am just coming out of a long episode (9 months) and this is what I learned: 1) open up and talk to people 2) seek out medical help 3) examine diet - I have stopped eating grains and dairy and I limit my sugar intake-this has helped me with feeling good and giving me energy 4) Drink water through out the day -seems there may be a connection btw dehydration and depression-again, this is helping me 5)meditaition/mindfulness- now this was a tricky one for me because I thought it was just a bunch of hooey but as I have learned more, I can say, I have felt the benefits of putting less pressure on myself, working through feelings instead of ruminating on them, and learning to like myself again. There are several apps to help get you started with this. And, 6) groups like this one!! So nice to have a place to really open up and receive support! These are the steps I found myself stumbling upon and finding strength from. Everyones journey is different but I hope I have offered something that may help you. Stay strong and keep talking,

❤️amymvb

[dixont04 in reply to amymvb]

Wow thanks a lot and Thanks for sharing. I’m not really sure how this meditation thing works?

[amymvb in reply to dixont04]

I seriously scoffed at the idea of mindfulness/meditation when it was first recommended to me but when things got so bad and I was desparate, I thought I better give it a shot. I started with a CD set that a friend gave to me called The Mindful Way through Depression: Freeing Yourself from Chronic Unhappiness by Mark Williams, John Teasdale, Zimdel Segal, and Jon Kabat-Zinn. I have not even made it through the whole set yet. The first CD spoke to me so much that I just listened to it over and over again initially. I have now made it on to the second and third.😀 See if you can find it and give it a try and let out a little giggle when he asks you to “gaze at the raisin”.

[dixont04 in reply to amymvb]

Lol okay great thank you I’m definitely gonna try that.

[Shutterbug65]

I’m sorry you are going through such a difficult time. If it helps I know how it feels to be lonely and think no one cares. I battle anxiety and depression everyday, and I’m alone. And yes at times I think of suicide. But there are wonderful people here who will listen. And are more articulate in explaining how you can help yourself than I am. Take care of yourself.

[cb934586]

I have been suicidal a lot. Now I am not. I got a therapist and a psychiatrist. Having someone who you can talk to helps a lot. I agree with the person who says beware of people who think they are God. Get someone who will listen to you. ECT and severe treatments didn't help me. I had to get out of it myself and choose good doctors. I try to do things that give me joy. Like I got a dog and the dog is very loving and happy to be with me. I eat desserts because that cheers me up. Being around people is better than being alone. I contacted NAMI and found a support group for anxiety and depression.