welcome to my lonely life

[dark-laur]

Hey, I'm new here and I'm an 18 years old girl with social anxiety and depression.

I apologize for any mistake I may make because English is not my first language.

So basically I have a hard time getting to know new people and feel comfortable around them. I don't have many friends, and most of the time, I feel lonely because everyone I know has someone, closer friends, family, boyfriend/girlfriend who are priority to them and I feel like I'm not that person to anyone.

I don't know if that makes sense, but I wonder if anyone ever felt that way

[Stilltrying_]

Hi there and I am sure there are others who have felt the same. Are you living in a foreign country away from family or do you just not have family?

Myself I have a very small family. I am an older lady and not married and never had any children. I have one sister who lives in France and my dad is still alive at 95 but apart from that and my niece (my sister's daughter) and her husband I don't have any family.

I have managed to make friends however and find that very comforting. If you 'd like to share more about yourself we are always willing to listen and we all befriend each other on here, like a family although not blood related.

Sending hugs and hope you're ok. gemmalouise Xx

[dark-laur in reply to Stilltrying_]

Hello!

Yes, I live with my family (except my father who is completely absent) but they never managed to be understanding and I ended up closing myself off, I don't know how to communicate with them and most of the time I feel alone.

I hope to meet people who are more understanding here and I'm glad you took some of your time to respond me

[Starrlight in reply to dark-laur]

I can relate. I feel lonely in the anxiety and depression. I do have family but not many close friends because I end up not pushing away really but not being able to keep up socially as I need lots of alone time and get so anxious that I say no so I have to really try hard to push myself to get out there.

I am glad you came here as it is such a kind understanding community. It’s nice to meet you, Dark-laur and hope to get to know you better.

[dark-laur in reply to Starrlight]

I feel exactly the same. My anxiety leads me to isolate myself and this loneliness fuels my depression. It's a vicious cycle that is very difficult to break.

I'm happy to meet someone who can relate, I already feel welcome here.

[Starrlight in reply to dark-laur]

I am so happy you feel welcome here yeah it IS a vicious cycle, isn’t it? I am so determined to break free!!!

[dark-laur in reply to Starrlight]

Determination is the key. I'm still taking small steps, but I believe that respecting your time you can conquer anything. I'm rooting for you

[Starrlight in reply to dark-laur]

I’m also taking small steps and every once in a while large and one day at a time or trying as I tend to look ahead and worry . Thanks for rooting for me!!!😊

[Vonnah]

Hey, I'm 20 years old and i remember how i felt at 18. Lost, lonely, and i didn't love myself at all. I fought just to get through high school and was bullied all 4 years. I made it out alive somehow. Please don't give up sweet girl💜 i know how you feel. At 20, i still feel lost and i am still trying to find my way. Just remember to take one day at a time. Better days will come. Stay strong😘❤💜❤💜

[dark-laur]

Thank you so much! When we support each other this journey becomes easier and we are stronger.

"I may not be there yet, but I’m closer than I was yesterday."

Stay stong, I believe in you 🌹❤