I don't work because of my anxiety/panic/depression and have lost contact with all of my friends since my husband and I moved 3 years ago and admittedly I was ashamed of my unemployment and the fact that I gained weight and so I withdrew contact from them. But even if I was in contact with them I feel so removed emotionally from those I love like my husband and my mom who are the only contact I have daily. I know I love my husband, I don't know what I'd do without his presence-life would not be worth living without him for sure. But on the daily I just cannot feel the love I am given by him, like he will do something that I say would make me feel loved and it just doesn't. Everything feels hollow, I feel like I'm faking a good mood sometimes because it hurts him that I'm just sad all the time. I just feel like I'm not even human and I'm trying to relate and care for others but it just feels so awkward and wrong and doesn't touch the emptiness. Is this the depression maybe or am I just a robot?