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[GM1954]

I am not looking forward to the doc visit. I am afraid I will chicken out. Everything they do adds to my anxiety. Docs need to understand how this effects people.

[Scott1951]

I am sorry things are so difficult for you. It sounds like your doctor is the only one in your life who has a chance of helping you. I hope you will not chicken out and miss your appointment. It will take effort to change your situation. Maybe posting here will be a first step in doing that. I wish you the best.

[Kg00]

Agree I have health anxiety and doctors visits do not make me feel better ( after they are over and all is good they do) my heart races as I wait when they take my vitals my heart beat is 100. But there is relief after it's over so you should go and maybe you will get a kind and reassuring one. I had that once it was great!

[Cat2]

If you don't go to the doctor, you will continue to feel this way. If you don't like your doctor, change it. A doctor that doesn't take the time to listen to you is not going to do you any good. It sounds like you need a psychiatrist. I happen to have finally found a good psychiatrist and psychologist. It took awhile, but I finally found them. Keep fighting for yourself. I know it's hard, but it is better than the alternative. You have made it this far, and you can make it farther. You just have to find the right help. And, you have to be willing to take steps. Steps are hard, but they help us get better. If it was easy, no one would be depressed/anxious. It's not going to just "get better". The help you need is probably not going to find you in your home, where it's comfy and safe. You have to work for it. Keep trying, one step at a time.

I understand not wanting to go out and see people. Seeing how well they are doing, and you're not, but that kind of thinking isn't going to get you help. Search the internet, maybe someone will talk to you over the phone? But you have to at least reach out. Don't give up, It can get better.

I am sorry that this is harsh, but I HAVE been there. I hated my life, and for most of it I wanted to kill myself. But I knew there had to be something better. I am by no means "healed", but I am feeling much better. The dread is gone. I still have lots of work to do on myself. But I don't fear waking up anymore.

Keep trying GM1954!