What to do with my life....

[Aliftimago]

So I had my 4th suicide attempt this weekend.....I'm convinced God or the devil don't even want me cause trying to take myself out doesn't even work.....out of the 4 times I was clinically dead twice and this time I only sky rocket launch my anxiety!!!!!I need professional help but this waiting game of waiting for assistance is a lengthy one... I can't even afford to help myself ... maybe a 5th time will get it done.

[Agora1]

There is no waiting in getting the help you need. It's time to go to the emergency room. You can't wait for an appointment with a doctor, you need support and attention right now. Let us know if you are alone right now. Is there anyone who can help you get to the hospital or call an ambulance for you. x

[Agora1]

We need to hear from you. Are you able to call a Crisis Line?

[Hidden]

Oh please no..there is help for you. I'm here for you if you need me..please? I'm sending you a hug, XXX

[Hidden]

Hello Aliftimago, Gracey here, please talk to me as I’m In exactly the same situation. I would love to hear from you I know exactly how you feel xx

[gerrerd]

I know some one that can help you. But i will tell you just the once so take note, It is then up to. Go to u tube type in dr wayne dyer and all you have to do is listen!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Gerrerd.

[Aliftimago]

I'm ok thanks everyone it's just thought but this weekend was horrible....I'm slowly drinking broth n eating popcicles.....I've got a friend coming over to check on me.....n I'm trying to muster up the energy to call the local hotline.....I'm afraid of getting into a large hospital bill that's why I'm afraid to go in without getting some kind of financial help......n Dr Dyer is great I have already read one of his books. It's just that this weekend was hard and the coming months will be tougher.

[Agora1 in reply to Aliftimago]

Thank you for responding. Please Stay Safe. People on the forum do care xx

[Hidden in reply to Aliftimago]

Ahh glad your ok I was worried, good you have read Dr Dyer. Everyone is here to support each other. Love & Prayers Gracey X

[pink83737]

ok listen.

suicide is

not a word

that should

be tossed

around

like a

playing ball.

telling someone

to kill themselves

is not joking.

let me put it

this way. please

don’t make a

permanent effect

on something that

is very temporary.

suicide is a v

serious and gentile

thing. i have

talked with many

people with

eating disorders,

anxiety disorders,

and much more.

i hear the same

from each one

“i just want it to

be over”

my response

to them would be

“by ending it

all does not

make it all go

away.”

now what i

mean by this is,

yes it will

be the end for

you,

but it won’t for

your mom,

your dad,

your brother,

your sister,

your grandma,

your grandma,

your dog,

your cat.

imagine how

hard it will be

for them.

each holiday

they have to

spend with

piles of tissues

and pictures

of you.

your dog

laying on your bed

wining.

please listen.

you are here

for a reason,

this fight is

hard but

imagine

how freaking

cool your story

will be. i

believe in you.

and i love you

so much .

[Aliftimago in reply to pink83737]

Thanks what you said keeps running through my mind......thank you.

[pink83737]

Please check my recent post, I promise things will get better believe they will & it can happen ! You are loved! Please pray to god I promise he answers prayers much love being sent

[pink83737]

You can also message me whenever ❤️

[Aliftimago]

I understand that.....thank you.....I have to remember that my son needs me every day. And I need him. My daughter just walked out on us this weekend and I over reacted. I have been so good for ten years with no attempts and been off medication for just as long.....I know it's time to seek more professional help and I'm working on that part....I'm already being hard on myself. But thanks for caring.

[Susan512]

Please please please don't even talk that way GOD LOVES YOU you are not alone I know it's hard my doctor pretty much gave up on me when she told me to try Valerian root and not a prescription anymore 😞

[Hidden]

Im glad you okay. Im not the right person to give advice about suicide but hang in there. Things do get better