Need help

[Tjwills]

I’ve been diagnosed as having depression and anxiety. I take mirtazpinie and propanalol for it but I think maybe it’s PTSD or the meds aren’t working.

I was married and have a 13 year old daughter - we broke up due to him being abusive and I left the home with my daughter. He took her and refused to give her back. I fought for 2 years to get her and she was placed with me by social services after it was discovered he’d been abusive to her both physically and mentally.

My daughter is going through camhs as she has complex needs and my family are scattered all over the country so I’m pretty much alone. I have these thoughts of not being good enough, not knowing what to do, no time alone etc but worse than that is I was separated for 2 years in that time it was almost like if grieved her and now she’s back, I won’t lie and I know this makes me sound like a monster (which is how I feel) but I’m struggling to bond too. It’s like my daughter had gone and I don’t know who this girl is... I know I sound like a totally cow and that’s how I feel but I have to be honest.

Hopefully there’s no one who has been through the same as me so there’s no one who understands but I’m hoping someone will read this and know how I’m feeling and what to do. Thanks

[fauxartist]

How long have you been on your meds? check with your doctor for sure and let them know they are not working. It's hard to help someone else when your not feeling right. It sounds like the two of you would benefit from co-counciling to work through issues as well. Kids often blame themselves or the parents for what they are going through emotionally, and as they are still young adults, they have their own kind of crazy trying to fit into the world as it is. Your daughter needs help too that you may not be able to provide, and you can not take that on board. If she is suffering from the abuse put on her, she has her own issues. The best you can do other than getting professional help, is to just be there the best you can and don't beat yourself up, your going through your own stuff.

[Tjwills in reply to fauxartist]

Thank you for the reply. I’m on the max dose of mirtazipine and have been on them for over 2 years. I spoke to my gp a while ago about them not working but he said he wasn’t going to change them because that can be worse for me. Also I don’t sleep too good so he said it won’t help there changing them. So he put me on propanol with the mirtazipine but I don’t think they do much either

[fauxartist in reply to Tjwills]

I would get a second opinion from another doctor if you can...can't hurt if your not getting better from what your current doctor is prescribing.

[Jason28]

Hi Tjwills,

I am on 10mg Propranolol and 20mg Citalopram each day for anxiety and depression, I can in some way relate to your circumstances because I have a son 1 week ago and something took over in my brain and my anxiety and depression has went through the roof, I can't sleep or eat. I can't bond with my son because I am so afraid of the responsibility of being a parent, I don't think your mad or a cow I just think you have some issues you need to work on.

I have spoken to my Doctor who has now referred me to the mental health team for how am feeling.