I’ve been diagnosed as having depression and anxiety. I take mirtazpinie and propanalol for it but I think maybe it’s PTSD or the meds aren’t working.
I was married and have a 13 year old daughter - we broke up due to him being abusive and I left the home with my daughter. He took her and refused to give her back. I fought for 2 years to get her and she was placed with me by social services after it was discovered he’d been abusive to her both physically and mentally.
My daughter is going through camhs as she has complex needs and my family are scattered all over the country so I’m pretty much alone. I have these thoughts of not being good enough, not knowing what to do, no time alone etc but worse than that is I was separated for 2 years in that time it was almost like if grieved her and now she’s back, I won’t lie and I know this makes me sound like a monster (which is how I feel) but I’m struggling to bond too. It’s like my daughter had gone and I don’t know who this girl is... I know I sound like a totally cow and that’s how I feel but I have to be honest.
Hopefully there’s no one who has been through the same as me so there’s no one who understands but I’m hoping someone will read this and know how I’m feeling and what to do. Thanks