I made it!

[gerg]

Yesterday I had a colonoscopy, no big deal, but I suffer from white coat anxiety. I went through the procedure without incident, even recovery from being knocked out. I used story editing and thought replacement to make it through, now I know I can do it again.

Several years ago I had a very bad accident and my anxiety took advantage of my situation. Since then medical procedures have been mental hell. It was automatic. The recovery from anathesia was the worst, I became a basket case. I think that part of my issue was that I didn’t feel worthy of care. What may have been rational fear grew to anxiety, panic, and avoidance. I even got to the point where I was anxious about my anxiety. This added to my self-loathing and the power of the anxiety grew.

I am so proud today, and I had to let you guys know that we can beat even the most powerful anxiety if we work on it.

I get to go ten years until my next colonoscopy, but I could do it again tomorrow if I had to.

[Forestina]

Well done. You deserve to feel proud.

[Hidden]

You sound an amazing person. Thankyou. for inspiring me :). Be happy 😊

[gerg in reply to Hidden]

I think there are a lot of amazing people here, and I thank you for being here for me.

I do feel happy today. Feeling joy is a goal of mine, but I am OK with feeling content. I now can accept most emotions well, as long as they are true and appropriate in intensity.