I’ve had one of the most difficult times these past 3 months. The number of friends i had decreased to like 3 in person and 2 more online. Back in November i was rushed to the ER because of a panic attack that ended up shutting my body down slowly. It caused me to lose strength in legs and I can I couldn’t walk “right” and had to force myself to walk around my own living room so my falls wouldn’t be as rough. In those 3 months up until now, not one person has helped me. Even just a call to check up on me. What hurts the most is i had one friend who I thought would care about me given how they treated me all of last year with exception to November and on. They’ve changed how they are with me. I can’t even get out of bed anymore.
I have gotten rid of the negativity in my life. That is why i only have 3 friends. I need these friends especially the one who i had a longer relationship with emotionally. I’ve tried going about things and asked if they just dont want to talk and they get defensive about it and say it’s all in my head (anxiety) deep down i know it’s not entirely that because of how they were with me back then.
I guess i just dont know what to do. A social life is needed. I need to be around people my age, yes. But I also have social anxiety which makes it difficult. I just want my friends to care enough to give me a call or visit me not just when they’re bored. I have always given my all to them and dropped everything for them and nobody has ever done that for me.