I’m new to this group. I’ve suffered from anxiety and depression for about twelve years. About a year ago I checked myself into a hospital. I was doing so much better afterwards. My boyfriend and I had our second daughter who is now nine months old and then three weeks ago he decided he “couldn’t carry my grief anymore” years just flushed down the toilet. I had to move myself and our four year old and nine month old in with my family. My oldest is devastated, she doesn’t get why we had to move out of our home. We worked at the same place so I’m looking for a new job, a new place for me and my kids. Im so damn lost but have to hold it together for my kids. I’m 27 years old and haven’t lived at home since I was 18. I miss my ex so much but know this is for the best. If he couldn’t handle me because of my depression and was willing to give up on me and destroy our family than there’s no use trying to get him back. I’m just struggling. I have thoughts I shouldn’t still, especially late at night. I know I can’t give into them, my girls need me. I just hate feeling like this, hate that I have to start over. I guess I just wanted to rant. I’m in counseling still. I just thought this might help too.