I'm easily discouraged and I hate it. If I feel kinda motivated and I do something it never ends up great. Like I was motivated to be more productive but when I went to google, to figure out different things I could do, I would only be able to do maybe 3 things from a list of ten. (It wasn't because I didn't think I could do it, well I mean that might have applied to a few, but I can't. Like one example had to do with work or driving around or something and I don't have a job and I can't drive.) So I just felt kinda stupid for even trying to get more productive.
Another incident was when I did and extra assignment for chemistry. (It was for getting the test percentage grade increased) The optional assignment was making a mole (the animal) because we had just got done with the chapter introducing up to moles (in chemistry). Well, I was gonna do it then I decided not to, but then I decided to do it really last minute and stayed up till 4am finishing it. I was so proud of it and I thought it looked great and humorous (It was in a silky red dress that had an extremely pleated skirt, I gave it HUGE googly eyes, and boobs) but when I took it in and saw the other 2 that had been made plus people's reactions and comments (nothing mean, but I complimented one guys mole and in response he said "Thanks..... Those are some big eyes.") I thought, "Ok mine isn't great, but it's still good and funny." But then I started to hate it and regret my choices and now it's gotten to the point that when ever I see it I want to rip it to bits and burn it (even tho I made it about 3-4 month's ago).
I just hate that I'm like this. It kinda happened with drawing I made for an art show about teen dating violence awareness and I worked hard on it and I was super proud of it. I took it in to school to show a few people and the response weren't great (1 was good tho). I got "ok, not sure what it means, but cool I guess.", "I like it?", And "That is awesome!". I also got other compliments from my mom, a family friend, and one class mate who is always supportive. Idk. Just the 2 not so great comments took my confidence down multiple pegs and made the rest of my day melancholy.