I sware as soon as I started feeling achey; this damn dark cloud took over. I keep crying cuz I don’t feel good, cuz I’m missing work, cuz kids really sick , and cuz if it’s not one thing it feels like another with me. But the feeling I get as I’m trying not to cry is overwhelming. I just want a normal week with no insecurities and no sad or shitty thoughts. Why can’t I get back to that. I’m in weekly counseling, communication is good with my man, so much support with him, I got trazadone for sleep. But I feel like if it wasn’t for worrying about breaking my kids and mans heart I’d give up cuz I hate feeling this pain every day.