I’m scared because I thought out a plan for just in case. I really couldn’t do it to my family, just leave like that it’s toooo horrible but I can’t stop thinking it would be in case for the future if things come down to it and I know I have to stay but I need to know there’s that out if needed I think. I feel so guilty about it. My husband just disrespected me in a huge way on top of struggling with anxiety and I feel so sad and like he’s a stranger like he’s just not good for me right now. I don’t know how I can be around him well for now I’m staying to myself but it’s 😞 so sad. How can he love me when he hurts me so I can’t even talk about what happened here.