Hello everybody, well first of i want to wish everybody happy new year and i hope you can achieve everything you want.
To be honest with everybody the only thing i want is this day ends, i don't feel ok i feel terrible, i feel tomorrow i'm gonna be the same me with the same problems, same anxiety, same fears, same depression. If i had a wish i would want to be with the man who broke up with me, i know that he might not love me but i still love him, even though he doesn't care about my feelings.
I saw a pic on Facebook with one of his best Friends, he seems happy enjoying new years eve and his friend's birthday, and i am here in Mexico in a small town at my grandma's wishing i wasn't alive. I know myself and i know i won't get over this no matter how much i try i will still have in my heart and my mind. The pain is so hard today cos i feel everything i had, everything i wanted is gone.
I had a hope a month ago, the only thing i wanted it was february coming so i would fly to Ireland i would see my man again. Now i need to restart a new life, do my stuff and recover. I'm sorry for being so negative today but i'm hating this day so much.
i wish i could disappear.