the anxiety

[kw41716]

i’ve never been so anxious in a while . i can’t sleep , i’m shaky , and i’m scared . this will be the longest night ever ... 😳

[Josie2394]

Hi, i’m Josie, i’m here if you need to talk.

[kw41716 in reply to Josie2394]

if you don’t mind , i’d like someone to talk to ☹️

[Josie2394 in reply to kw41716]

Of course I don’t mind. I understand how bad the anxiety feels...how are you doing?

[kw41716 in reply to Josie2394]

a little shaken up , i don’t want to go to this appointment in the morning but i know i need to go

[Josie2394 in reply to kw41716]

Therapy appointment?

[kw41716 in reply to Josie2394]

nope it’s for a lump i have found in my left breast that’s hurting and it’s bothering my whole left side of my chest

[Josie2394 in reply to kw41716]

Oh my, that’s scary, I know it probably won’t help to say it’ll all be ok when the anxiety is telling you otherwise.

But I hope it will all be ok..

Do you journal or anything of that sort?

[kw41716 in reply to Josie2394]

no i usually just lay here and let it go away on its own

[Josie2394 in reply to kw41716]

I do too sometimes, but my therapist had me try this exercise. I write whatever is bothering me, and the write a positive thought. It can clear your head a bit.

I know how scary it is, i’ve been through a lump scare myself and my mom is 2 months cancer free from breast cancer.

Idk if writing things down help you..maybe you can also try to listen to some relaxing music before bed, some meditation to put you into a calm state of mind at least before bed.

[kw41716 in reply to Josie2394]

i’ve been told to try it but i can never stay focused enough to write something down . everyone is telling me i’m fine and you don’t need to go tomorrow but i’m worried if i don’t go what might happen ? or what might happen if i do go ? i’m at odds with myself

[Josie2394 in reply to kw41716]

Well it’s not really about focus, it’s just about letting go on paper. Don’t think, just write.

It’s a scary appointment but you should go. You need to know what is going on with your body.

You’ll be more anxious if you don’t go..

[kw41716 in reply to Josie2394]

if i go and they find something how am i going to tell my fiancé ? ☹️ it’s making my stomach sick just thinking about it

[Josie2394 in reply to kw41716]

I’m sure he’ll be there for you! If he proposed he obviously loves you. I can’t tell you how to tell him because to be honest I wouldn’t know how to break that news either. But remember, it could be nothing..breathe, be prepared, you will be ok regardless of the outcome.

[kw41716 in reply to Josie2394]

i’m worried that it is something and him dealing with that again . hes already lost his closest family member to lung cancer and if i had something wrong with me like that , i have no clue how he’d react to it

[Josie2394 in reply to kw41716]

Take it from someone who has lost 4 family members to cancer and helped both my grandpa and my mom through their cancer. It NEVER gets easy. But it’s life and as shitty as it is, these things happen. But when these things happen to people we love, we stay, support and we fight. Trust me that it’ll be worse if you don’t find out what it is. He might take it hard, and obviously I don’t know you or him but if it is something, i’m sure he’ll be there to support you. Not to say that it won’t be hard for both of you, it will. But again, as hard as it is not to focus on the bad, try to think about something positive. Try to be optimistic about the outcome. It could be like mine and just be a cyst that can easily be removed.

[kw41716 in reply to Josie2394]

okay ill try remember that , thank you Josie ! i appreciate your help a lot

[Josie2394 in reply to kw41716]

Good luck tomorrow 💜

[kw41716 in reply to Josie2394]

thank you 💕

[Swim123]

I get crippling anxiety too. I am here if you need to talk.

[Swim123]

How are you doing?

[kw41716 in reply to Swim123]

scared , very scared !

[Swim123]

What is the cause of you being scared?

[kw41716 in reply to Swim123]

i was always told you never want to find any type of lump in your chest/breast area and unfortunately i have found one in my left one

[Swim123]

Have you gone to the doctor yet?

[kw41716 in reply to Swim123]

i go in the morning , that’s why i’m worried real bad

[Swim123]

I know it's easier said than done, but try not to worry. It could be just a benign cyst.

[kw41716 in reply to Swim123]

does a benign cyst hurt the chest and into the underarm some ?

[jamie1975]

You are young and whatever is in your breast is nothing serious. Every mammogram I get they think they see something and do ultrasounds and biopsies and it's never nothing serious. But of course I worry myself sick. You go to your appointment and after you are going to feel 100 percent better. I promise you.