Anxiety through the roof

[Tai_123]

I’m crawling in my own skin. My anxiety is through the roof and I’m thinking the worse about every issue and aspect of my life. I woke up at a reasonable hour and went back to sleep for 5 more hours. I feel like I lack the courage to live for this day. I am avoiding my life and avoiding living. For how long must I endure.

[Ivy_chan5]

Hello. My anxiety levels are damn high, just like you. I am trying to just survive everyday..talking with other people in this forum has helped me a lot. I think we all need to blurt it out somewhere and talking to people who are eager to help is the best thing. We are all a family. Just let it all out here.. all the triggers, everything, you will feel better. We are here to listen to you anytime. Maybe watch a funny video, listen to your favourite songs even if you don't feel like doing it at all.. trust me you will atleast feel 1 percent better and that's a lot for people like us. And share what you are going through on this forum 😊😊😊 Let's do our best!

[Tai_123 in reply to Ivy_chan5]

Hi Ivy_chan5, thank you so much for your reply. When I talk to my family and friends, I’m ok because I hide it from them. But I can’t always hide the anxiety from myself. I wish it would just let me be, but it is relentless. I’m trying to figure out what I have control over and what I do not, as well as what should I do as opposed what I shouldn’t do. It’s just maddening trying to survive in such an unclear and frightening world. I am an extrovert and do not do well with large amounts of unstructured time on my hands. I know that I have the power to change it, I just don’t feel like doing anything to help myself. It is the strangest thing not wanting to help your own self.

I’m sorry that you’re going through something similar. You’re right; it helps to just blurt it out on the forum. I’m hear you and here for you to lean on.

[Ivy_chan5 in reply to Tai_123]

Yes, your words are completely relatable. 😕 Let's try our best! And thank you for your sweet words.😊

[Tai_123 in reply to Ivy_chan5]

Anytime 😊

[Vickyjean]

How are you feeling?

My anxiety has been very high, not fun at all. I am reading and writing and telling myself to try to acknowledge today and I am doing the right things to get through the pain.

I think you did really great reaching out and just keep posting. That releases thoughts and know you are not alone.

[Tai_123 in reply to Vickyjean]

See my message to you above 😊

[Tai_123]

Hi Vickyjean, thank you for the message. I’m still quite anxious. I’m in bed and my nervous energy is coming out in my shifty legs. It’s a little after 9 pm where I live and I still have meds to take. I am not tired as I slept until noon today so I’m just trying to pass the time by watching YouTube videos. Anything really to distract myself. I need something more in my life to counterbalance this anxiety. I’ve tried meditation and it does work but it’s a difficult thing to do when your anxiety is quite high. So, I’m just trying to soothe myself and repeating that all is well and that I deserve happiness.

I’m sorry that your anxiety is very high as I know exactly what that feels like. I am here for you and we will get through this 💜

[Vickyjean in reply to Tai_123]

We will get through this together, that makes me feel better hearing that. Ok so watching the videos is excellent. Do you write your thoughts ever? What would make you feel better? Are you giving yourself something to answer the neg with a positive?

[Tai_123 in reply to Vickyjean]

I wrote my thoughts down earlier today which helped. I cannot think of a single thing that would make me feel better. But, I’m currently working on ways of responding to the negative with a positive. I know that my thoughts are distorted and that I’m thinking along very extreme lines. I can catch myself in the act but I’m struggling working my way out. What have you tried in the past that worked?

[Vickyjean in reply to Tai_123]

Write write write doing that homework is what got me through every painful time.

Today I am allowing myself to believe I am doing what it takes to get there. I have highs and lows and let’s see if this helps me for tomorrow.

[Tai_123 in reply to Vickyjean]

You are doing what it takes to get to where you need to be. Continue to have faith and trust in your own abilities and efforts. You are in the right path. Tomorrow, my goal is to get out of bed when I wake up and not fall back to sleep for another four hours. It is to have the courage to face my own mind whatever it might be doing or thinking. I will get some water, meditate for 5 minutes and start writing. Feel free to check in tomorrow if that will help. You can PM message me. Have a good night and hope that you sleep well with little anxiety 💜

[Hidden]

Sometimes just taking a long shower or bath is what really helps me. And I love the smell of lavender. I used to have this lavender spray and I would spray my pillowcases and sheets, it's very calming.

[Tai_123 in reply to Hidden]

Having a long shower sounds like a really good idea. I will take one tomorrow morning. Thank you for that idea and I hope that your evening is anxiety free 😊

[ciley]

you slept? i have intense fear of it~