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i am constantly in fear that i am going to die or something bad is going to happen, i understand the fear of death is normal but i’m getting to the point where i’m crying or on the verge of crying every single day, i have high blood pressure and i’m constant afraid that i’m going to have a stroke or a heart attack bc that’s all i ever see, i’m still young, only 18, but i am so afraid that i’m gonna die young from something horrible that it makes me jus wanna “get it over with” i’ve been to the doctors multiple times, they told me health wise, other than my high blood pressure, i’m healthy, there’s nothing wrong with my heart, i’m at a healthy weight, no diabetes or hypo/hyperthyroidism, urine sample came back normal, but i’m still so scared and it’s eating away at my thoughts, i’ve had what feels like panic attacks, i had one yesterday, and i am constant on edge and i feel sad. I just needed to get this off my chest:( feel free to leave any advice or if anyone has had similar experiences

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U R afraid something bad is Going to happen. I am constantly afraid something bad IS happening, at all times.

The constant panic attacks cause such a terrible feeling in my stomach I can't even describe it.

As insane as it sounds listening to all the ways my friends are suffering takes my mind off my own fears so much it Stops my panic attacks !!

So keep on Complaining !!

My stomach feels So Much better !!!

I joke but I care about you all.

Suffering isn't Funny ...

Chris

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celestw in reply to

haha thanks!...

i feel that too the anxiety is so bad i can’t even get up in the morning and do anything productive, i’ve lost friends bc of this, even my own mother is tired of me , it gets so bad i begin to have panic attacks, i talked to my doctor and i most likely gonna be put on medication

i guess i get so comfortable in my own suffering i can’t get out of it i need to accept it haha!

i wish you all the best also, we can get through this!

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I lay in bed all day and play with the computer. I word things funny, but I truly have learned that the busier I keep myself and the more I occupy my mind, the less the panic. It seems pretty pathetic for a 61 year old man to be lying in bed unable to think of Anything else but my continuously painful stomach...

I don't have the answers but for me being busier works really well and I've decided to grocery shop once a week by bike just to be busier so my stomach stops hurting.

I've always had GAD, I was so suprised the internet said that I have Every possible symptom of panic attack disorder. I thought that was for weak people who worry over nothing. Well I have it and unless busy I worry over Everything!!! It's really sad. It is no way to live

Chris

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I could have written your post. I am in your age group, and as the years go rolling by I feel more and more anxious and also am depressed. As soon as I wake up, the worries and my regrets start. But I heard that is because when you first wake up, your defenses are down, and that's why these thoughts come at you. Keeping busy is the way to deal with them. I see a counselor twice a month and take anti-anxiety meds, even though my husband sneers why an old bag like me has to waste a counselor's time and pop pills like an overage hippie.

Having said that, understand that you are far from pathetic. You are going through a difficult time and need help getting past it. Please involve people who are good for you. Friends are out there. Your job is to find them.

So I am giving viewpoints for you that are ones I am involved with in improving my mental health. I see there are other good replies for you from others in this group. Know that you have cheerleaders, and please let me know if you need a chat.

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Thanks, so you do fully understand me.. I've improved some - looks to me by just continuously being very busy with anything - it doesn't matter what or how unimportant, like taking an extra hot shower when I already showered, just because it feels good !!

It's a little embarrassing that your man is unable to support you in your tough battle to fight A+D!!!

Support yourself by keeping on sharing with all of us,

Thanks for saying that you relate --

Chris

The Catman

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Ellesbells12

Hello :) I am so so sorry you are feeling like this. I suffer with this too, I am 21. I completely understand how hard it is, and how easy something can trigger it. If you need a chat feel free to pop me a message. Take care x

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celestw in reply to Ellesbells12

thank you so much <3

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I just try to do one little thing better,

than I did yesterday...

That’s all we can do,

and it works quite well for me,

as you can see...

I feed my new duck friends every day...

I like it late at night, when no one is there

but the Catman

and you all...

With a Little a Little Help

from My Friends, here

The Beatles

🎧

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I even just apologized to Amazon for being rude yesterday

having pneumonia and

surgery yesterday

They gave me five dollar credit,

for apologizing

and for my

obvious -

Hurting

🤕

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Anna_and_Ollie

When I was a few years younger I used to feel the same way. I was constantly in and out of the hospital but in my case it was stomach issues.

I think In this scenario changing your perspective on yourself could be helpful. Instead of looking at yourself as unhealthy tell yourself you are. High blood pressure is a problem but it can be managed ❤️

Next time you find yourself feeling this way why don’t you try rationalizing with yourself about what is really going on that’s upsetting you in that moment.

This is just a suggestion of course, we all have to find our best ways and what has worked for me may not work for you. No matter, just don’t give up on yourself ❤️

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celestw in reply to Anna_and_Ollie

thank you for the advice i’m really needing it at this times thank you<3

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L1994

I am bad with health anxiety. I am 26 and constantly feel like i am going to get ill or worry about my daughter getting ill. Yes I think that what Anna_and_ollie said is so right. Think of your self as healthy not unhealthy. I feel that this is what sets my anxiety off more because I go in tk more of a panic then feel ill. and when I see my self as healthy it does help stop it sometimes and feel abit more (normal). Altho it can be hard when suffering with health anxiety it does help and its all about training your mind. My therapist told me it's a learning behaviour that our brains have learnt and we need to re train our brains.it doesn't just happen over night unfortunately. I also have had massive stomach problems and try to tell my self its anxiety causing it. Altho in the back of my head the constant worry that it could be something more serious causing the belly ache and belly pains. All the weird sensations. I know how you feel and it's so debilitating

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Vinnie77

Find a natropath if you can. They will do extensive bloodwork on you. Anxiety can be from something wrong like thyroid disease, SIBO, Genitic mutations. I have been where you are with fear/anxiety. Western medicine Dr told me I was depressed, prescribed pills, told me to lose weight. 5 plus years later I find I have cronic Epstein barr virus, hashimoto's low thyroid, mtfr Genitic mutation and SIBO. I was being misdiagnosed for years because no one would look deeper. I had many vitamin deficiencies. No wonder I was having insane panic attacks and adrenal rushes non stop. There are 5 different thyroid tests,don't let them only check tsh levels because you can have normal tsh and still have thyroid issues. Keep your head up and please find a dr who will look deeper into your symptoms. Ending it all is never the answer, things will get better and bad and better again be that's part of life but this anxiety can be cured. I'm wondering why you have high blood pressure at 18 but your a healthy weight. There are many testable illnesses out there that can create anxiety. Vitamin deficiencies, hormonal imbalances cause anxiety as well. My anxiety started at 17, I'm 42 and only a year ago found out what was really wrong with me. I was Robbed of so much of my life being misdiagnosed. I pray you get to the root sooner. Never stop advocating for yourself. Never give up on yourself. Best to you

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FearIsALiar

I know how you feel.

A stroke and heart attack is very unlikely to happen at the age of 18. I understand your worries because I worry about my health a lot. But I am healthy and so are you as your doctors have told you. Trust your doctor they know a lot more .

90% of the things we think are going to happen that are bad dont. I struggle with this too but I heard someone say once "humans are the only living thing that fears death"

Why is that? Because we have the ability to speak and logic...

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Cellardoor in reply to Iamreadyforchange

I didn’t fear death once I realized that wherever I was a century ago is probably where I will be when

I die.

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Iamreadyforchange in reply to Cellardoor

Can you elaborate?

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Cellardoor in reply to Iamreadyforchange

Just ask yourself where you were a hundred years ago or before you were born. You were there or in that state for much longer than you have been living on earth. And let’s face it, earth is no picnic. That’s helped me.

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Tinkering

Sounds like a panic disorder. Do you exercise regularly? That does wonders. You are young and have many years ahead of you. The thoughts should fade once you deal with the anxiety. :)

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Photog55

It is hard for someone your age to be dealing with this. You did not mention taking any meds or seeing a therapist, this can help. I know many are against meds and I have my reservations also, but sometimes it helps for a short term to break the cycle.

When I was 18, I lived a life style that I know know was a way of believing that if I was not killed, I was all ok. But as time went by I realized I was being self destructive, tempting fate.

What has always helped me is to do something, anything to take my mind someplace else. Read a book, cook, work on the car, clean, anything to distract myself from my thoughts of doom. If you are focused on something else, no matter how inane, it can take you away for a while. When I am not busy, I just crash and can not even think of tomorrow. So I try to keep busy but I know it is hard and at times it is almost impossible just keep trying.

All my love an hope you feel even just a bit better.

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Earthchild10

I truly feel like this is one of the root causes of anxiety. I've been having these negative thoughts for the past 12 years. I guess we let our mind get the better of us and feed off the fear. Eventually our bodies go into a flight or fright mode.

You will get over these fears and symptoms once you've accepted the fact that you have anxiety and knowing that its okay to have anxiety too. Our body's tend to react on what we feed our minds.

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Blue_81

Hello celestw

Sorry to hear you are going to a rough time. Anxiety just makes everything so much worse. At the present moment been dealing with physical pain that does not go away. Like pain wasn’t already enough, This has just caused to bring back my anxiety and feelings of sadness. However, In the past I have notice that a warm cup of chamomile tea helped relax my nerves.

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SuZQ154

Sorry you are feeling so low! It is a hard time!

I heard these rules at the beginning of the pandemic and I keep referring back to them when I start to get anxious!1.Media distancing.

2.Do not engage with worry. Take action. Say, “Don’t take the bait.”

3.Focus on present odds.

4.Do not react to your own physical symptoms.

5.Focus on being productive and new ways of enjoying life.

6.Engage in stress reduction activities.

7.Do not go beyond the CDC guidelines. No compulsive hand washing.

8.Preserve some sense of normalcy.

9.Be kind to yourself and others and have FAITH!

10.Seek our professional help, if needed

.

Hope this helps, friend!!

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sunandbutterfly

So sorry to hear of the way that you are feeling. You are not alone...I am glad that you have talked to your care provider to rule our physical problems that may be at the root. Have you considered seeing a psychiatrist or talking to a licensed counselor? Or perhaps some of these would be helpful? list.ly/list/4RqZ-peace-for...

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