To be honest the past couple months have been really hard. My grandpa isn’t doing well and seeing him slowly decline is breaking my heart. He needs constant care as of late and I try to be okay but it’s really hard seeing him the way he is. He has Alzheimer’s and he’s slowly forgetting more and more and it’s scary. At the beginning of the year we’re gonna try to put him in the nursing home full time and part of me knows it’s what’s best because we can’t take care of him as much as he needs but the other part of me feels guilty that there isn’t more we can do. I live with my grandparents so it’s been very difficult on me.
At the beginning of next year I’m probably gonna have to move in with my mom since my grandma won’t be able to afford where were living once he’s in and that terrifies me. I don’t have the best relationship with my mother and I don’t know how I’ll be able to live with her but I don’t have anywhere else to go. I keep looking for a job but having no luck there so that’s not helping.
And on top of all that i haven’t been feeling well and I think I’m coming down with a cold or something. I keep getting these pains in my chest and I keep telling myself it’s probably just stress, or gas or strained muscles from coughing but there’s this part of me that’s scared it’s something with my heart. I’ve never had heart issues before but I read all the articles online and I feel like they only freak me out more and I don’t know what to do.
I feel like everything is just piling and I’m about to crack. Tonight is the first time in awhile I just cried about it all and I’m still scared to think of what’s to come.
Gosh, I’m Having a Good Day
Overwhelmed 
About to lose it!
Dating 
Sad And Depressed 
