Me or you?!!!

[deea21]

I do feel like I can't live one more second most of the time; but when I see there is still something I could help and give my support it deserve to wake up another day to help others , and see how they could smile. I don't think I'm worthy but I do know we are all unique and are here on this planet for a reason. I feel like I hate this life; but I love from the bottom of my being the way a flower it's rising again from the earth every spring and become more beautiful and gracefully every year. I feel like I can't stand the rain and few me sick and pushing me to go and cry , but in the end I'm searching every time the rainbow on the sky. So what are we here for? Do we have a reason? Can we wake up from this awful dream and be happy? I know we can, I know it's something that we need to create and make it happen. We don't need to obsessively positive and don't eat or smile all the time and forget about the society we live in; but we can be in the middle like ting and yang. Accept ourselves, our mistakes, if we are ugly or fat; if we are very needy or doubtful and try to love us, to make a difference for our mind and body. To start everyday with a nice word about ourselves, be grateful for what we have and see the smallest things in the world. I hate my body because I'm fat and I always dreamed to be a size 6 and a model, but I'm not and I will never be. But I love my hands and my lips and I'm grateful for them. I'm happy because I can think and I can choose what to think, others are too robotic to even do that ; but I do have that option and I'm grateful for it. I hate to look at my body, but I still do nice things for it, because I treat him bad in the past and now he deserves better: I give him natural moisture or a sodium bath to relax. Why not to try ?! No matter how bad I fall, I need to get up again. If I think I don't deserve nothing, there are people who need help, so wake up for them!!!!

[Justswimming]

You are worth it you can always lose wt just make swaps skim for whole milk..write down what you eat and know the calorie count add exercise drink water instead of juice or soda and not everybody is made to be a size 6 the size of your body is not who you are how you treat other people and your actions are who you are..you are here for a reason treat yourself as you would a friend help her be healthy, help her take care of herself, help her find the gifts she has...you can do it...we all.struggle with self worth from time to time ..I'm looking for a job and not exactly feeling good about myself because of that so I avoid my friends cause I feel down .....its when I need support the most..have to push through and make myself be social make myself look for job and clean house etc...

[deea21 in reply to Justswimming]

I know the feeling.... just that I'm in a big mud , I do have a kid and that's it. No money, no job, no life,no friends, I don't know if my husband loves me anymore and maybe I will be soon out by myself with an autistic kid and no future. I can't even sell my soul to survive in a country where everything it's expensive.... but we must rise our heads and go on .... at least you have friends if they judge you, they don't deserve you. 😘

[ciley]

yes, that is normal and good,cheers ciley

[ciley]

sounds tough...you are managing,you can never tell what good or bad thing may happen.....ciley