Hope is gone

I can’t live my life like this. All my hope to ever get better is gone. I am not me anymore and I hate this person. I’m always either sad or irritated at everything. I had an active suicide plan and ended up hospitalized in June. Now it’s all back and I hate it. I’m a failure I can’t even stand myself anymore.

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I've been in a similar situation myself and can only say from my own experience that it will get better. You have to make changes for things to get better and gradually it will. But even the smallest little baby steps in a positive direction can have a huge impact on your state of mind. So have a think about what tiny things you could do to make yourself feel better and do that. Maybe set a small goal that you can achieve with relative ease and do that. And if you can't do that take smaller steps towards it. Day by day it will get better.

[SadPants]

I take it half an hour at a time. I make plans for the weekend so I have something to look forward to. Those are just little things but they can help. Hang in there, you are not alone.

[Sprinkle1]

You will get better, but it sounds like you need medical help, probably an antidepressant, talk to your Dr. Find a therapist and a support group, they are invaluable. I am coming out of a bad depression, with the anxiety still doing a number on me. I found a support group and went for the lst time on Mon.they were so kind and helpful. Therapy is also offered there, so I have filled out the intake form and hope to start therapy soon. I have had therapy in the past, and always found it helpful Do Not give up on yourself. You are special and lovable. I have attempted suicide in the past - got caught - so my mantra is "Suicide is not an option". Getting help is foremost. And I must not believe some of these thoughts it is the brain lying to me. Put your best food forward, slowly and one at a time, just like "one day at a time". It will take time but healing it out there. I send you love, hope, strength and peace. Sprinkle 1