Giving up

[Cat26538]

I hate myself so much. I’m panicking really bad right now. I’m in pain and about to cry. I can’t live like this anymore

[Geoandy]

Hi I can't tell u I know wat u are goin through but I can try to comfort u yesterday I went to yhe hospital my head wasn't feeling too good my blood pressure up my tonsils swollen I gain weight doctor put me on some medication I totally break down in the doctors office u are are not alone dear I am highly stress and depress in pain everything bad happening now today I sleep from 8 -6 I overdose on one of the meds jus be strong I can tell u it may not mean much to but it's alot coming from me

[Cat26538 in reply to Geoandy]

Thanks

[Marshall64]

It sounds like you have had a tough time lately. Is there something triggering these episodes?

[Cat26538 in reply to Marshall64]

Just flat out being alive

[Marshall64 in reply to Cat26538]

Do you have any medication that takes off the edge?

[Cat26538 in reply to Marshall64]

Ok so I take 100mg of sertraline and 10mg of Buspirone 3x a day. I started taking that much Buspirone 6 weeks ago. I think it’s too much because I’m having horrible panic attacks and suicidal thoughts. I see my psychiatrist on Monday and I’m gonna talk to him about it

[Marshall64 in reply to Cat26538]

My niece was on Buspirone and it was giving her panic attacks. She reduced the dosage and I think she is doing better.

Did your doctor give you any benzo to take when you have panic attacks?

[Cat26538 in reply to Marshall64]

No. He doesn’t know I’m having these panic attacks. I’m gonna tell him on Monday

[Marshall64 in reply to Cat26538]

Have you tried exercise, breathing exercises, yoga, or meditation? Those are some of the natural ways to cope until you see your doctor. There were some other people talking about a book on anxiety that has helped them.

[hypercat54]

Cat why do you hate yourself so much? What have you done that's so awful? You are suffering from depression and/or anxiety and are suffering enough. Please don't punish yourself any further by calling yourself emotive names.

What would you say to your best friend if they were suffering like you? Fake until you make it being your own best friend.

I know you are suffering but what do you want to happen? Do you want to end up in a mental hospital? Are you looking for attention and someone to care about you? Are you looking for love? Can you find any ways of letting off steam such as taking up a sport?

Have a think about this and if you can work out what you actually want then can you find positive ways to get it? x

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I agree, all the advice in the world will never help until you help yourself.

[Cat26538 in reply to hypercat54]

Sorry. I got into another fight with my mom. I’m thinking about running away. Plus I’m in so much pain from this broken tooth. It’s cutting my tongue. I can’t find a dentist that takes my insurance. I’m really starting to get frustrated

[hypercat54]

Cat can you find a way to calm down? Maybe listening to soothing music or something? You seem to keep ramping up your anger and frustration to very high levels and your loved ones don't seem to be helping. I am not having a go at you but try and count to 10 before you let go of your feelings. You will feel better and so with others.

Remember that everyone has problems too and we all get angry and frustrated but the more we show these emotions the more we drive others away. Try and release them in a harmless way by taking up a sport ie running, bashing your pillows, speaking to a good friend etc.

When I was feeling really wound up (mainly by a terrible job) I had a good friend whom I used to go round to and start ranting and raving at. She would listen me out then rant and rave about all her problems too! We used to end up laughing and putting the world to rights x