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[Tammy_1]

Hi everyone. I'm just here trying to bring back balance to my life. I'm suffering from anxiety due to constant worrying. I'm not suicidal but I don't have any friends and this has been for the past 10-15 years. I had one major disappointment prior to this. I'm open to making friends here

[CapitalT]

Hi Tammy_1 and welcome. I'm sure you'll make some friends here, perhaps you could tell us a bit more about yourself.

C T

[Tammy_1 in reply to CapitalT]

Hi CapitalT

[Tammy_1 in reply to Tammy_1]

Yes I'm sure I can make friends here. I'm very loving towards my son he's 20 months

[Hidden]

Hi Tammy,

I find this community very therapeutic as I too dont have any friends for support during hard times.

I hope you find this place can bring back the balance you are searching for.

What causes your anxiety and worries?

Sunshine x

[Tammy_1 in reply to Hidden]

Hi, yes thank you I hope so too. I'm a single parent with a son I would love to do things with his dad but I'm unable to so my son and I usually do things alone or with family support but the outlet from a loving partner I don't have and I'm unable to accept it. I spend lots of alone time just thinking when I'm not with my son. I work but I am very reserved things I used to do before experiencing a few disappointments I don't do anymore

[Windy101]

Hi Tammy! I'm glad that you're here. Being a single parent has to be very tough at times. It's great that you do things with your son. It's hard to not have a loving partner in your life. Are there things you want to do in particular? Sometimes there are goups for single moms and dads that plan activities.

[Tammy_1 in reply to Windy101]

Hi back Yes and thank you for the suggestion I must try to find some. In my position I still hold onto what could've been. I don't want to feel sorry for myself so I stay away from settings where I would observe someone who's like me and I feel like I'm worse off

[Tammy_1]

Just to add a bit more about myself. I don't usually express myself so I don't know my strength.

[Tammy_1 in reply to Tammy_1]

I don't have lots of relatives around to depend on and that's where my anxiety comes into play.. Support balance. I'm now starting to lose my appetite where people have family members to support them I feel out numbered in lots of situations. I think I'm peculiar when I might not be. I've lived in Canada before and I moved back and forth for a while so building friendships is hard for me since I don't like to get too close to anyone. My last relationship I let my guard down and was hurt and that was 15 years ago. I'm trying to rebuild now I decided to go back to the same heart break person so it's the same old that cannot be fixed

[Windy101]

Is ig going back to the same person that's causing your unhappiness? Sometimes we forget that relationships are supposed to bring joy.

[Tammy_1 in reply to Windy101]

It does. I had a hard time with the first breakup. We had stopped speaking and he got serious with someone else so it's something we both can't change. When I tell the truth about it I feel lost in the world

[Hidden]

Hi Tammy. Welcome. I'm always open to talk if you want a friend you've found one

[Tammy_1 in reply to Hidden]

Thanks!

[Madison10]

Hi Tammy,

I saw your post and thought I’d say hi. I have suffered from anxiety and depression for most of my life . I always had it under control. I found a good therapist. I have been on this site a couple months, still confused as to how it works . I have a couple conversations with someone and I never here again. I don’t know the area this site covers but I have talked to people in other countries. Well you take care and if you want to talk I am a good listener

[Tammy_1 in reply to Madison10]

Thanks!

[Jld0010]

Hello Tammy,

If your like me, I think you'll find putting thoughts in writing will help. I write daily journals and it is the one thing that has help me the most. Using this site as a forum for that is even better. Take care and stay safe!

[Tammy_1]

Thank you I will!

[Tammy_1]

I have a journal ready for tonight jld0010

[Jld0010 in reply to Tammy_1]

That's great, I hope it helps! I can’t explain it but I find that when I put my thoughts on paper, I realize that 99% of the time I’m just thinking negatively and catastrophing. I also take Diazepam and practice mindfulness meditation. Usually I take the Diazepam and then start 30 minutes of meditation. I am still dealing with one major issue in my life now but this is the way I cope. I’ve gone through a few depressive and high anxiety issues in my life and I’ve always gotten past them. I need to realize that I will get past this one also. The problem is keeping that thought in my head and the catastrophing out.

[Tammy_1 in reply to Jld0010]

Yes it did! Thanks for the suggestion.

[Hidden]

Hi Tammy

I’m here if you need anyone to chat with.

Hugs

Gucci