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[debstr]

I'm new and kind of apprehensive about talking about my mental health. I'm mad at myself for being controlled by it. I am 24, and kind of isolated due to anxiety and depression. I have been seeing a psychiatrist and been on a range of medications, but I don't feel any better. It's easier to lie in bed and ignore the world. I hate that I give in but I still do. I'm a philosophy/mathematics major just trying to finish my thesis paper and find a new job. I'd like to talk with people who understand what it feels like to be depressed and anxious, and to heal. It is disheartening when I get told to pull myself up or to feel better....we all would do it immediately if it were that easy. Some support and accountability to friends would be nice. Let's be friends? I'd love to listen.

[Sprinkle1]

Hello, sounds like you are in a lousy place, I understand. I make myself get up, I am improving - I am on 6 med's - it is slow. In the beginning the fear kept me in my chair most of the day, but now I am doing a few things each day. As one of our other members suggested - do something for 5 mins and see if you can get it to 15 mins - I tried it and have found myself doing for 1 hour. Does your psychiatrist also talk with you? If not I would suggest a therapist or a support group. And talk to us, you will get some good support here. Be good to yourself, do at least 1 good thing a day for yourself. Sending love & peace. Sprinkle 1

[Hidden]

Sigh I’m exhausted from my battle with anxiety as well you are not alone I feel everything you feel day in and day out. Putting up a front has drained me completely. I’ve done all I could and seem lost as well. I don’t have any advice but that you have someone else here who’s dealing with the same stuff.

[MaryElley]

I still struggle with that too...being mad at myself for "being this way", especially since its my own actions that have systematically dismantled my life. And even though that's something I'm still working on, I can tell you that the sooner you forgive yourself, the sooner you can start working on getting better. I just joined as well, and already find it very helpful and validating to hear that others out there are like me, and understand that "snapping out of it" is not an option. Good luck on your thesis!

[Agora1]

We are your friend debstr. We don't judge because we understand. Welcome to our little family of support. x