just keep getting more angry and hate for my mother she ever done is take advantage and purposely make my life harder and use me to benefit off of 9 years and she could do is disrespect me and make me out to be the bad guy and she does it tell negative stuff about me or my life. cause she ever does is complain. and been doing is providing for her ungrateful ass she cant manage her own life cause she doesn't try cause she always had someone helping her cause she manipulates. and only just realized this. and just pissed that wasted my time on her. i dont know if it wrong to hate my mother but this no mother who treats there children like crap to there own benefits. have child of my own and could never do that. i feel guilty cause she be homeless if i would to leave thats what bothering dont want to see her in the streets. makes me sad and upset that how she is. my own mother has so much hate for me and dont know why ? :,( all she done is live her life doing nothing and she mad at me for it. she so blind by herself.
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Angry and Resentment
I understand your suffering, and it must be unbearable living with her and helping her yet all you get back is hate and disrespect.
Perhaps she is upset with how her life turned out and is taking it out on you, or perhaps she is jealous of everything you have? Perhaps she has lost something in her life and cannot be happy in hers now? There are always reasons why people are so hurtful and hateful towards their loved ones. It is important to remember it is not your fault she is angry, and that you do everything you can to love and help her. You dont hate her, you hate how she acts towards you.
Take a moment when you're close to tears and think about the reasons why she is attacking you, and find a way to forgive her.
She does love you, more than she shows, but her struggle obviously makes her very blind to her own actions towards you. Tell her you love her and show her through your own kind words and actions how she can begin to show she loves you too.
Much love through your struggle x