What a year..

[victoria137]

Last year around October I started having bad panic attacks at work. Not knowing what was happening at the time I ignored them. Being a cashier I had to deal with people all the time. I was used to this when I lived with my mom. Though I recently moved in with my boyfriend (first time moving out). I soon realized that they were panic attacks and I would go home an hour into my shift. A couple weeks later I quit my job. I called out days in a row and instead of continue going I gave up. My hormones were at a wack to due to quitting birth control. I always felt like I was going to pass out, fall, or have another episode. It scared me so bad that I kept going to the doctor for something new each week. My neck hurt, ears rang, constant head tightness, I was going insane. There wasn't a day that I didn't think about killing myself. Eventually they found nothing wrong with me so I gave up on going also. Then all the pain and problems started going away. I figured that I was going through mass amounts on anxiety. I was actually doing it to myself as hard I tried not to.

Around April was a convention that I was waiting to go to all year. I had to take many "breaks" and sit in a corner due to being overwhelmed. This is not like me at all. I have always been be going to the same convention for years. Though for a year I have been dealing with this. When I am with my boyfriend I feel "better". I haven't worked for a whole year and it started to make me really severely depressed. Thought I couldn't fathom having to work.

I recently just got another job working with animals. I thought maybe not working with people would help but I feel like it is going to get bad again. I sat there yesterday and today counting down the hours. I just want to take a shower and lay in bed.I tend to get shake and really nauseous before and during work. I think it gets worse the closer my period gets.My dermatillia is worse then it has been in years. Sorry a little to my info. I just want to know if anyone can help me. Or suggest something.

[Rick1on1]

Hi,

I would like to help but need to ask a series of questions - some might be awkward.

Are you currently any medication?

I assume that during the doctor visits of a year ago - a battery of tests were done to rule any other medical conditions?

Are you getting support from your mum and boyfriend? Is there any other strong relationships with friends and family?

Do you follow a balanced diet?

Do you exercise?