Woke up but wish I never would...

[Shellydlake]

Woke up but wish I never would again.... I know when I die I'll finally get to rest....

[Ria29]

I'm so sorry that you are feeling like this. Its just awful and i dont really know what to say to you, only that you are not alone, I do get it. I take strong pain killers for a medical problem and sometimes i forget if I have taken them and then I think, does it really matter, if I have and i od then at least i wont be feeling like this anymore, and then in the morning I wake and something happens to make me glad that I did wake up. I just think that sometimes it would be nicer to just sleep for a few days straight when my mind is not up to functioning.

[Lag1 in reply to Ria29]

I TOTALLY understand the feeling of not wanting to live because life sucks but wanting to see what the future holds. It’s just a “tired of living” feeling. But we all have things to live for.

[Vonnah in reply to Lag1]

Not me.

[Lag1 in reply to Vonnah]

No, we all do. None of us truly knows what the future holds or if the next med or new dose is going make the difference we need. I have only seen my daughter once in the past month and my heart is shattered but my son needs me, my parents need me. I don’t want anyone left to be responsible for any of my debt or cause anyone pain by having to pack up my house. Everyone reacts differently to stress, pain (emotional and/or physical), depression but most of our brains and bodies react within the normal range. It is hard not to blame ourselves for how we think or what our systems do under extreme conditions. But, just know that, we all have vulnerabilities but we can overcome.

[Vonnah in reply to Lag1]

Very encouraging. Thanks for that😌

[Mary-intussuception in reply to Vonnah]

Hi Vonnah

How are you now

xx

[Vonnah in reply to Mary-intussuception]

Thanks for saying hello. I haven't been on here in a long time but at the moment I am really struggling with a lot of things.

[Mary-intussuception in reply to Vonnah]

Sorry you're struggling with so much.

Anything you would like to share? On here or in a private message?

xx

[Vonnah in reply to Mary-intussuception]

Yeah we can private message. But it's about wanting to get better but don't know how and feeling like I've lost my sense of direction. I feel like I have no one.

[GMurphyR]

Please, please don’t think that way... I always tell my kids to breathe and focus on something they want to happen today, and guess what? The only way to get it is to wake up and try. Please don’t give up trying, the world needs beautiful souls.

[Struggling777]

Shellydlake im sorry you're feeling this way and I understand 100% as I've felt that way so many mornings and many times haven't moved from my bed! I'm not proud of that but it's the truth. Life can be such a joy and such a sorrow.

I firmly believe that people who suffer depression feel emotions more deeply than others and care and empathise with others more deeply too. In the same vein, when hurting and in pain they experience this more deeply too. I wonder if this applies to you too? I have great admiration for those who fight and keep going although I'm not always one of those people! Sometimes it's too easy to give up.

Be kind to yourself and I hope you'll soon be enjoying life a little more. 🙏

[Vonnah]

I FEEL EXACTLY THE SAME. WISH I COULD DIE IN MY SLEEP AND DISAPPEAR. 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

[Lostjoy in reply to Vonnah]

I feel this way also. The anxiety it brutal for me. It's no way to live, and I'm so tired of trying to get it to ease. It's wearing me down.

[Vonnah in reply to Lostjoy]

I wish there was a effing cure!!!!!!!!😧😧😧

[Lostjoy in reply to Vonnah]

Me too!

[Vonnah in reply to Lostjoy]

I understand and hope for you to find peace😔

[Lostjoy in reply to Vonnah]

Thank you I wish peace for you also.

[Struggling777]

I just don't ever want to feel this way again -- wishing everyone a better day today. 🙏

[Girlwithaquill]

I'm so sorry. ❤️