Anxiety Through the Roof 🤦🏻‍♀️

[comb]

I can feel my heart race, my blood boil. I constantly pick st my cuticles and scalp. I wake up with crippling anxiety and racing thoughts. My depression hits and it all feels like too much to handle.

I’m trying to be more open about my GAD and major depressive disorder but i feel like most people are fairly dismissive about it or just say “oh yeah, I’m stressed today.” Did you have your bf pick out your clothes this morning because you can’t make simple decisions? Ugh.

Struggling to calm myself. I need to take life by each minute but it’s also so scary to think that this is how I am.

[Hidden]

Comb, it is unfortunate that most people do not understand mental illness. They do not understand what it feels like to be anxious or depressed. They think, "Oh, it's all in your mind." They think that somehow we have chosen to be anxious or depressed, or in my case, bipolar.

I've struggled almost my entire life to manage the symptoms of my disorder. I went for years just believing that if I just tried harder, I could manage myself better. I've gone for years without medication, believing what people say when they remark, "It's all in your mind and you can control it."

It is a struggle to find peace in the midst of a raging emotional storm. It is frightening to be caught up in an episode of anxiety when you feel like you're going to die, and the fear and guilt are overwhelming. I've been there. Several times.

I have medications that help me through these periods, but I also work on self-help therapies.

It is good that you are part of a support group like this one -- I hope you find the assurance that you need that you are not alone, and others have suffered and know what it's like.

Bright Blessings to you!

[comb in reply to Hidden]

Thank you DruidJude! It’s nice to know that others are going through this as well. I’ve found meditation is helpful at least in the morning or night too.

[one-love]

I know your pain I have my good days and my bad days a lot of my anxiety attacks I thought were heart attacks in the beginning because of the physical symptoms I was always having (heart pounding, dizzy, impending doom feeling, breathing difficulty) but after years of having them and talking to doctors and therapists I realize now when I have them they are just anxiety attacks but they can be very scary for sure if you don't know what it is in the beginning. I hate taking RX meds too so it's a double edge sword, I feel like I trade one problem for another when I take the pills the doctors give me and all the side effects that come with them. To be honest I have been using medical marijuana for the last few years and I feel it really helps me and doesn't have near as many bad side effects. I know it might sound crazy but look into it and try a sativa strain it really helps with mood, anxiety and depression. But use a low does if you never tried it before

[comb in reply to one-love]

I have found that marijuana really does help my anxiety. It allows me to do things that I wouldn’t originally want to do. I’ve also been having a lot of nausea and lack of appetite, which that helps as well. My anxiety medication isn’t really working the way I would want it, but I’m also getting off fluoxetine to get onto another anti-depressant so it’s been really funky. I’m so tired of waking up to panic. Blah.

[one-love in reply to comb]

I hear ya, well feel better

[Sprinkle1]

Comb, Try to ignore the rude remarks, they probably have no idea of your illness. Do you have a trusted Doctor? or should you seek out a creditable Psychiatrist, there is help for our illness, I am on and anti-depressant that is also good for anxiety, I also have busbar for anxiety, that takes a few weeks to really kick in, and when I am desperate I use Lorazepam it goes to work in an hour. Try to find a support group in your area,, they are invaluable. I sen d You Peace and Strength Sprinkle 1