Hi. Im new. I have ptsd, anxiety, depression and I believe codependency issues. I was sexually abused as a child, have a mother that has lied to me my whole life...found out why I was the blacksheep finally at 51 years old...I was born from an extramarital relationship...ran away from home and ended up pregnant and married at 16, married 2 more times to sexual wierdos, another time to a con man that took my career and every dime I had. Met a wonderful man that I left for the man I'm with now ....bad decision on that one..the man I chose cant communicate without labeling me, putting me down, and "kicking me out" and "needing a new woman". I am going to be 57 next month and simply dont have the strength or the means to start again. I have tried to end my life several times in my past but obviously I'm still here. I dont have any real friends. I hate being alone. I'm lost. Cant seem to stay connected to jesus. Drink to numb pain...not dependent on it so no, dont need AA. I am on the highest dose of effexor but still worry about everything!! I can't afford therapy...did it some but dont have the means to continue. Is there any free support groups in the area? Milwaukee/waukesha or?? I so need help to get strong emotionally and spiritually. I am scared. I am depressed. I am lost. I cant go on like this anymore. I am lonely.