A mother witg anxiety..

[HNE1991]

I am new here and i feel its hard for anyone to understand my mind. I have anxiety indiced ocd. I have two children and a lovibg husband but i often feel guilty and down. Like everything going wrong is my fault even if things are perfectly fine. To control beibg anxious i obsess with things i can control like the budget. I write and write it over and over til it drives me crazy and i fill up a notebook.

[Dontpanicjule]

Have you seen a doctor or psychologist. You need to talk to a professional and perhaps get on some medication. There are good medications for ocd, one of them being zoloft.

[HNE1991 in reply to Dontpanicjule]

I am on zoloft my doctor said it may just be post partum for some of it. I go back this week. Im going to try and get back in to a psychologist

[Dontpanicjule]

HNE1991, I know you are desperate you are right now. I have been there many many times. It started with me 5 years ago when my daughter had a complicated pregnancy...and then she went on and had two more extremely dangerous pregnancies. Gestational diabetes and preeclampsia. WHile she has three gorgeous and healthy sons now, the fear stayed with me, on and off. I am in a bout of it now. I have changed medications. WAs on zoloft but went off it on my own without consulting my doctor when I was feeling cocky and good back in April. Guess what? Went into one of my funks! The zoloft no longer worked for mewhen I tried going back on, but it did for many many years. You need to be patient. It is a good medicine, but it really takes time to kick in. You are going to be fine. Hang tough, girlfriend. THis, too, will pass. I am here if you need me. My mother, who is 88 years old, has suffered her entire life with terrible anxiety, but she is still going strong. It is a cross to carry, but considering some other crosses people bear...

Warm regards,

Julie (don't panic Jule)

[HNE1991 in reply to Dontpanicjule]

Thank u very much! Its been bad since i was diagnosed 6 years ago with leukemia lost myfirst pregnancy during treatment and didn't think id have any kids after..its hard for me to be out aroynd a lit of people or in a situation i cant control

[H5L82]

I read this and it sounds so much like myself except mind recently got much worse.