So fed up fighting with my mind !!!

[Aspergirl47]

I woke up this morning feeling really frightened and a host of negative thoughts, I got up and put a relaxation cd on which helped a bit, then my son told me he was going out to meet his friends, an immediate rush of panic followed and I was scared of being left alone in the house, again took a while to calm down after he went out..I later tried to go for a walk to the shops and again high anxiety levels, got home and after an hour or so I couldn't stop crying and had horrible thoughts of wishing I was dead...Anyone else feel like their fighting with their mind, all day every day...so fed up..

[BadJoker]

Yes trust me you are not alone. Ever day it's a battle but the few moments we have when there is even but a slight calmness over us is a victory! Keep your head up. The sun shall shine tomorrow.

[Aspergirl47 in reply to BadJoker]

Thank u...Good to hear I'm not alone, it just feels like it....I seem to have awful separation anxiety...feel so stupid...My son has left the house and I'm sitting here shaking with fear, like I'm afraid of being alone...I hope youre day is a good one...

[BadJoker in reply to Aspergirl47]

No don't wore your never alone when it comes to this. Try distracting yourself. Coloring or watching a movie. I like to roll myself up in covers and watch a movie. I also have a onesie it's comfy and makes me feel like I'm being hugged hope you feel better

[Aspergirl47 in reply to BadJoker]

Had a little sleep Iwas listening to a relaxation cd and I slept I seem to panic about not going out,probably due to me being severely Agoraphobic for 6years and only left my front door to go into the car every day and I got a bit better after that and started going out a short distance but now I think I'm obsessed about needing to go out every day or I'm trapped!!!! I seem to overthink everything...I like the idea of a onesie, would be a good idea, I was diagnosed only last year with Aspergers and Ocd so I think that's making me feel worse...Distraction seems to be the key for anxiety...youre a great help, this site has been so helpful, people are so nice

[guynfl2chat]

I feel the same way. Sometimes I wake up and say.. there it is again! Fight through it and realize it will pass. I have said this in other posts. I am guilty of this as well.. you need to try and change your morning routine and distract yourself. This change will send a message to your brain that there is something else to focus on. However, allow yourself to feel bad sometimes. I think those of us with anxiety have this habit of trying to say we need to feel good everyday. This is never gonna to happen and just accept that, but enjoy the good days and understand you are not alone.

[Aspergirl47 in reply to guynfl2chat]

Hi, Yeah mornings seem to be the worst, the minute I open my eyes I can feel my heart racing, then I get really scared, I try to get out of bed and put on a relaxation cd, that does help a bit but then when my son is getting ready to go out I start trembling and panic takes over, I don't want to stop him from going out with his friends as he has Aspergers and needs friends but somedays I'm almost begging him not to go out!!! I think my anxiety has got worse since I was diagnosed with Aspergers only last year, I think its because I know I'm stuck with this condition my whole life...Thank u for youre helpful advice, everyone is really nice, that makes such a difference to know I'm not the only one fighting this horrible anxiety...

[one-love]

I know your pain I have my good days and my bad days a lot of my anxiety attacks I thought were heart attacks in the beginning because of the physical symptoms I was always having (heart pounding, dizzy, impending doom feeling, breathing difficulty) but after years of having them and talking to doctors and therapists I realize now when I have them they are just anxiety attacks but they can be very scary for sure if you don't know what it is in the beginning. I hate taking RX meds too so it's a double edge sword, I feel like I trade one problem for another when I take the pills the doctors give me and all the side effects that come with them. To be honest I have been using medical marijuana for the last few years and I feel it really helps me and doesn't have near as many bad side effects. I know it might sound crazy but look into it and try a sativa strain it really helps with mood, anxiety and depression. But use a low does if you never tried it before