Its a rough day...hi

[K1mm3r]

I am having a rough day. I feel angry and depressed and guilty. I shouldn't feel guilty about feeling depressed but I do becaise I think it affects my kids. They are young and dont understand and my husband doesn't understand. I think he tries but he doesn't know how. I just keep thinking thatnif I can get through today it will get better. It has too right? Nothing happened today. Actually that's not true I felt great this morning and worked out and cleaned, then took a shower, now I feel the weight of the depression on me. :/ I just took my meds, hopefully they will kick in and help me. I keep having suicidal thoughts that the kids would be better off without me. Why do I struggle? Why does mental illness hurt so much.

[mysmugcat]

Hello and welcome.

[mysmugcat]

I'm tired today as often. Depression says horrible things to us. Sorry for my short responses you will likely get more detailed ones.

[K1mm3r in reply to mysmugcat]

It's ok I just needed to write it out. I was hoping it would help me.

[AnxiousGirl87]

Been a rough day for me too. Depression and anxiety tell you a lot of things that simply aren't true. I had a wonderful day yesterday and then I woke up at like 6 or a little before after only sleeping about 2 hours having an anxiety attack. It just set the tone for the whole day. I've pretty much been in bed all day except to do some dishes. I hate anxiety and depression for ruining good times and making bad times even worse. I'm sorry you are having a rough day. Your kids would never be better off without you.

[1dayiwontfeelthisway]

I'm sorry ...battled this beast for years. Had been meds free for 4 years. And in 2 months my life has turned upside down. Father in law died watched my hub try to save him, breast cancer scare and a car wreck 3 weeks ago. I'm going to pieces again.

You can do this! We can do this! We are stronger than this mess.

[Fishmonster]

Being a survivor of my childhood and abuse

The years of pain and alcohol

I sobered up got on meds and went through therapy. I did so well I was able to stop the meds and I couldn't have been happier

I became a volunteer FF got married to an amazing woman and life came all crashing down a few years later when I got hurt being a firefighter

Almost 4 years since then I'm still fighting my mind and body every day. I have to get up to support my family but I don't want to get up I want it all to end I'm in chronic pain with anxiety and depression my meds only take the edge off

I know my family couldn't go on without me so I keep on pushing