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Hi I just need to vent. Last night I kept having bad thoughts. I don't like to use the S word so I just say bad thoughts. I survived the night so that's good. I don't understand why I get those thoughts. I love my family and I know they need me. I feel like I'm always teetering on the edge. My meds seem to be working and I don't want to go on any more. 3 in the am and 1 at night is enough for me. I think it might have something to do with my counselor appt. I was telling him how I don't really do anything all day and I think I feel guilty. like I'm more of a burden on my family. I don't like that feeling. It scares me. My family loves me and I love them. They need me, my kids need me. I have to keep telling myself that. I also need to remember the thoughts will pass. I need strength...

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Tealb

Sending you my love & stay strong. As you said, your family NEED you & LOVE you!!! Always remember that.

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purl1 in reply toTealb

thank you for the kind words. I need all the strength I can get.

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Kat63

Try to remember that your family loves you, and that if one of them was sick or in pain, you would be there for them -

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purl1 in reply toKat63

I definantly try to remember that. They need me. I lost my mom at 16 and it was devastating. I don't ever want to put my kids through something like that especially at my own hand.

Very good rational thinking to counter the irrational. You are absolutely fundamental to your family as much as each of them is fundamental to you. Love reading a post like this. Open, honest, and keeping composed as you can. You're doing all that you can and I wish all the strength in the world to you. You're doing great, keep it up :D

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thank you for your kind words and strength. I appreciate it.

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JAYnLA

Like you, when the thoughts come I just call them 'negative thoughts'. I've realized that I don't actually want to go through with it - I just want to know that there's a way out sometimes. Eventually I remember that the way out is through. Thanks for opening up with us.

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purl1 in reply toJAYnLA

thank you for responding. It means a lot to hear from everyone and to know other people are experiencing the same. guess I need to learn to work through it too.

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anxiety is really hight today. having a hard time dealing with it.

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