Stuck in a rut of depression

[Msheatherlady]

I’m currently feeling more depressed then I’ve felt in awhile. There’s a lot going on and it’s difficult to handle. I’m having trouble find a full time job and it’s honestly killing my confidence. I constantly think negatively wondering what’s wrong with me that no one wants me. I’m getting less hours and I’ve been moved around at the part time job I’m currently at and it’s making me feel like somethings wrong with me. And to top it all off my cousins dog was put to sleep Tuesday because of cancer and I haven’t been coping well. That dog was my buddy and I took care of him whenever their family was away. I truly loved the dog and my heart hurts so much even though it wasn’t my dog. I feel like I’m never going to get out of this rut and I’m so sad constantly. My family doesn’t understand and just tells me to get over it , or calls me names like loser for not being able to get hired. I don’t know who to turn to. As I have started seeing a counselor again but I can’t see her everyday it’s difficult. I just want to climb out of this hole and I don’t know how.

[Sandia]

I understand what you are going through. I am currently trying to find a full time job as well and started to think negative about myself. The problem is that we are just over thinking about ourselves, we will find a job and I realized I have to stay positive or at least try my hardest or else i may not find a job. As far as the dog goes, I’m so sorry that you are dealing with the dogs death, I’ve also been there and it is so hard. They are family too and just let your feelings out and cry when you need too. You loved the dog and it’s okay to be sad about its death. Lastly don’t listen to anyone who calls you names, they don’t understand what you are going through and you are not a loser. Try and keep your head up during this difficult time as hard as it is, you will get through it.