I’m currently feeling more depressed then I’ve felt in awhile. There’s a lot going on and it’s difficult to handle. I’m having trouble find a full time job and it’s honestly killing my confidence. I constantly think negatively wondering what’s wrong with me that no one wants me. I’m getting less hours and I’ve been moved around at the part time job I’m currently at and it’s making me feel like somethings wrong with me. And to top it all off my cousins dog was put to sleep Tuesday because of cancer and I haven’t been coping well. That dog was my buddy and I took care of him whenever their family was away. I truly loved the dog and my heart hurts so much even though it wasn’t my dog. I feel like I’m never going to get out of this rut and I’m so sad constantly. My family doesn’t understand and just tells me to get over it , or calls me names like loser for not being able to get hired. I don’t know who to turn to. As I have started seeing a counselor again but I can’t see her everyday it’s difficult. I just want to climb out of this hole and I don’t know how.