Hello to all eyeballs reading this...

[ontherunyon]

Im Ariel. I deal with social anxiety on a regular basis and am now experiencing the most severe depression ive faced in a long time. I was looking for in person support groups and came across this site. I am just starting counseling but crave to connect with others who are feeling this hopelessness. I cant find a support group in my area. I have just moved here and dont know anyone. I have some family but they dont really get it. Im pregnant. Never wanted kids. The father admitted to getting me pregnant on purpose. He has some issues. And it became a very bad relationship. He stayed in another state. Beforehand he would lovingly tell me his excitement to be a father. He would beg me to stay with him. He would use the prettiest words to make me feel adored. And now that im here...I hardly get a text or a reply. We are broken up but its like I have only become a incubator for his child. And ive helped him so many times when he was homeless and with his health anxieties or whatever he was facing. And I think I feel this way because now when im on the verge of breaking he is still putting himself first. And i have no one. I have time. Time to obsess and think, Ive bought a guitar and i paint a bit but its hard to even watch tv. Im towards the end of my pregnancy so its kind of hard to ask someone to hire you for 6 or 7 weeks. And I know its not healthy but before when I was depressed, I would drink with a female friend usually every Saturday. And smoke cigarettes and work. Id be good within a month. But i cant do any of that. I dont know. Its just hard. I dont really know what I expect from this site. Or if ive said too much. But im just starting my counseling and im hoping it will have a significant impact. In the meantime I guess I want to end this post by thanking you for reading this much and saying I love you. We need more love in the world and I hope you all find what you are looking for.

[Lostjoy]

Hello, I am currently having the worst depressive phase along with anxiety that I have ever faced. I couldn't imagine feeling like this while being pregnant. My three kids are grown, and I'm lucky to say I have never experienced anything like this previously.

This site has helped me get through some pretty bad days. There are not always a lot of people online, depending on what time you are on, but someone usually always responds eventually. Sometimes I just read through the posts and replies. I've found quite a bit of helpful information. It is somehow comforting just knowing that everyone here is struggling with similar issues as mine. I wish I could find that magic cure that would help end the suffering for each and every person here. It's just good to have support, and help support others in need.

I also just moved to a new place where I don't know anyone. All I want to do is go home. But we are not in a place financially where we can up and go back.

Do you know if your baby is a boy or girl?

Please feel free to post or vent whenever you feel the need to.

Lots of caring souls here.

Wishing you the best.

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Hello hun, I'm sorry you are going through this feeling alone. I know that feeling all to well. I liked your post and feel your kindness and suffering too. You're also right in that this world needs more love ❤ so thank you for that. Im here if you need a friend or to vent. I wish you and your little angel all the best. And that things will get better for you and him/her. The best gift is a child I sat mine have shown me what true love is ☺❤. Take care hun

[Ddorne]

Ontherunyan,

I'm so sorry for your situation. It's great you have therapist. We all know depression and anxiety on this site. You may not want to drink or smoke but connecting to

People will really help you. Are you on meds? A lot of pregnant women are on them. Try not to let your boyfriend bother you. But it sounds like he's hurt you a lot . Keep writing and go to therapy as much as you can.

God Bless LD

[Loveydovey0519 Ambassador]

Welcome to the group! Hope you find this place as beneficial as so many other people do. Sorry to hear about the tough time you are going through, with time all things will get some better. Just try to stay positive, I know how difficult it can be.