My anxiety has been back full force these past few months, I've been getting panic attacks 2-3 times a day which has made it so difficult to function at work. I get heart palpitations and it gets hard to breathe, and I already have a fear of hearts, so the palpitations and fast beat make me think I'm having a heart attack. I'm so scared of the next panic attack, it seems to induce them. I'm by myself in a college town, with my close family a 24 hour drive away. It gets so lonely and hopeless feeling. I hate feeling stuck, and I hate feeling out of control. It was a mess trying to find someplace that would accept my healthcare here, and once I finally did, they aren't able to take me until another month. They are the type of place where you need to be a medical patient first before they refer you to a psychiatrist or therapist. Anxiety is the most hopeless feeling thing, it feels like your brain is attacking you, and your own mind is the one thing you can't run from.