Um, I've never done anything like this before. I was in New York 2days after the attack. I was a tunnel rat looking for survivors. What I saw was mostly body parts. I'm now very antisocial, a very heavy drinker, and really don't give a damn about anything anymore. Hell I don't even care if I live or die. What's the point. My brother who I'm staying with wants nothing to do with me anymore because of the person ive become. He wants the old me back. Hell i want the old me back. I just dont know what to do or how to go about trying to get him back, and that's if I really want him back. I don't know what to do or where to turn. Maybe I should just give up and forget the old me. What do I do?