What do I do

[Merrillsmerauders]

Um, I've never done anything like this before. I was in New York 2days after the attack. I was a tunnel rat looking for survivors. What I saw was mostly body parts. I'm now very antisocial, a very heavy drinker, and really don't give a damn about anything anymore. Hell I don't even care if I live or die. What's the point. My brother who I'm staying with wants nothing to do with me anymore because of the person ive become. He wants the old me back. Hell i want the old me back. I just dont know what to do or how to go about trying to get him back, and that's if I really want him back. I don't know what to do or where to turn. Maybe I should just give up and forget the old me. What do I do?

[natstad8]

So sorry to hear how badly you got affected by that disaster. You are doing a great job by looking for help! Please don't give up, there are so many wonderful things out there for you, just believe. You are strong man inside. I feel it. You did something not every man can do, like looking for survivors. Did you try to go to counseling for ptsd and other health problems?