I’m holding every emotion in. Trying to heal from my past has become utterly impossible. I’m living in a place extremely similar to hell and I have to fake everything till I can leave. Being nice to a nine year old that makes my life a living hell literally she’s Satan’s spawn and I just want to go home already. 6 freaking months living in this hell hole and it’s still not a for sure when we can leave back home and on top of that the guy I love is in Italy on his mission and he doesn’t know I love or like him and we can only email on mondays and I’m lucky to get an email because he’s technically not allowed to email me since I’m a girl. I feel freaking lost without him... so... freaking...lost.... since I can’t express my feelings here in hell or to him I feel like I’m suffocating and I can’t break free. There’s days when I freak out on my dad since I can’t at anyone else. Idk what to do...😭
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