Hi my name is Jessica Aguilar and this is new to me I have been depressed and have anxiety so bad it's hard for me to focus on my life I always put myself last and make everyone happy before me I have beautiful kids and I love them very much. But I have so many problems with my oldest he says he hates his smaller brother my older son is 11 and young one is 5 it's a big gap but I love them both the same no difference at all and my oldest says I do. I don't no we're else to seek help I have been threw a lot and mylife is just a mess at times and at times its ok. But most the time I feel like not living anymore. I need some help some advice some help.