These emotions and thoughts get such a hold of me and I just want to crawl back in bed. I want to hide from the world. I want to feel safe. The word courage is such a drag. I wish I was braver and strong to face these thoughts and ignore them or call them lies. And face these feeling and say these are just chemicals in my body making me feel like garbage. But what I am feeling is so real and overwhelming. I was at work when I was triggered and I have been feeling really good for such a good while, so to have this slip makes me feel very hopeless, but trying to keep my chin up in the midst of it all. I hate it. I so desperately hate it.